The Girl With the Scars

Chapter Forty-Three

I flipped through the channels again mentally praying that something entertaining was actually on. Spencer had been in the washroom for a little bit now and I was starting to think he bailed on me and decided to sleep instead. Shaking my head I turned the TV off and made my way up the stairs as quietly as possible. Turning the corner I opened the door to our room and saw the washroom light on. I was about to leave when I heard him coughing uncontrollably.

“Spence!” I shout knocking on the door.

“I’m fine” He whispered hoarsely before coughing again.

“Open the door right now” I demanded and surprisingly he obliged but what I wasn’t ready for was the blood stained floor.

“Oh my god” I said and ran towards Spencer who was lying on the ground with his back leaning on the cupboard. He looked even paler then before.

“Hey hey keep your eyes open for me Spence, look at me” I said as he started to lose consciousness

I quickly called Jay who was sleeping in the other room and we drove him to the hospital.

***

“We are still running some tests on Mr. Reynolds, though in this stage of his brain tumour it is normal to be puking blood and he is getting weaker so what I suggest is admitting him into the hospital so we can take care of him and he can have a comfortable stay” The doctor says and I look over at Jay knowing that the last thing that Spencer wants is to spend his last few days in a hospital.

“We’ll admit him” Jay said and gave me a look and I agreed, it didn’t matter what Spencer wanted as long as he was safe we convince him to stay here.

“Can we see him?” I ask and he nods.

I walked cautiously into the pale white room that seemed to match Spence’s complexion quite well at the moment. He was lying on the bed with a bunch of wires attached to his arm and a guilty expression adorned on his face.

“Hey” I whispered walking towards him.

“Hey” He said back weakly.

“I’m going to stay here aren’t I?” He asked but he already knew the answer as I didn’t reply.

“It’s the best for me I know” He said and I just stared at his face. He looked so weak, he was clearly getting weaker as the days were going by but this was the worst I had seen him. Dark circles were visible under his eyes and he had definitely lost quite a bit of weight.

“Hey, don’t do that okay I’m fine just talk to me” He said stroking my cheek.

“You don’t deserve this, no one does but still ugh” I said biting on my tongue and trying to keep the tears at bay.

“No! You promised me no more crying” He whispered taking my warm hand in his much colder one.

“I should be the one comforting you” I said with a slight chuckle.

“I guess I’ll just have to always be the one taking care of you” He joked but the words hit me hard.

“What am I supposed to do when you’re gone?” I said looking away from him. I should be making his last few days good ones and not filled with me crying but I couldn’t even fathom the thought of waking up in a world without him.

"You’re going to live a full and happy life because that’s what you deserve, the only thing I wish for right now is a healthy life to live and that’s what you’ve been blessed with. Hailey you are the strongest person I have ever met in my life and I know you can do this, think about the past few weeks we’ve spent together and all the good times we’ve had, you can do this and you will not give up because yes life gets hard and it will fuck you over again and again but as long as you don’t give up, you win” He says.

“I will always love you and I know you love me and you’ve made me the happiest man on earth by being my girlfriend. I just want to leave peacefully knowing that you will live life and you wont give up, ever. Can you promise me that baby?” Spencer says  with tears brimming his eyes.

I nod feeling the lump in my throat making it harder for me to breathe.

“I want you to be happy” He says.

“I love you so much Spencer” I say.

“Yeah, enough of this sentimental shit come and kiss me” He says wiping his eyes. I laugh shaking my head and bring my head down to his leaning my forehead onto his.

“You’ll never be alone baby” He says and softly kisses my lips and I hum in reply.

“Wow wow guys let’s keep this room holy alright” Jason says while barging in with Jay following closely behind him. Spencer chuckled motioning them over and I watched as they became engaged in an intense conversation on whether or not Toms were considered winter appropriate shoes.