Dear Josh,
This night didn't go well.
I kept waking up and crying because I have to leave you soon.
I can't leave you Josh, I can't do it.
Last night, I decided to google "What to do when your husband is in a coma."
Y'know what one website said?
"Go out and have some fun with new people."
............they're advising me to cheat.
What a stupid fucking disgusting thing is that?? Wow. I didn't think people could get any worse but this proved it.
I hate websites like those. Same with commercials like those. "Are you happily married? Me too. Secondlove.com"
How can someone even think of creating a website like that and advertising it??
I don't get it.
I would never cheat on you. I wouldn't even want to find a new partner if you'd die, or if you don't remember me.
When we married, we promised to be each other's forever. Not until death do us part: We promised to be faithful to each other forever. We promised that we are only meant for each other forever. That we would only be for each other forever. No one else.
I'll keep that promise.
Colin and Jesse will be here in twenty minutes. I only have twenty minutes left with you, so I'm gonna spend those cuddled up to you, kissing your face as I run my hand through your hair, like you always loved.
I'm gonna sing Miss You Girl by 77 Bombay Street for you before I leave, and I'll change the word 'girl' to 'boy'.
D'you remember the lyrics, Joshie?
I lie on my bed,
on a moonless night,
I'm still awake,
I can't sleep tonight,
my thoughts belong to you,
'cause I, I love you
I miss you boy,
'cause you're not by my side,
and I'm alone tonight,
I miss your love,
I wanna hold you tight in my arms,
but I do know,
you'll come back to me,
oh yes I'm sure,
'cause your love is real,
so please just come back home,
'cause I, I love you
I miss you boy,
'cause you're not by my side
and I'm alone tonight,
I miss your love,
I wanna hold you tight in my arms
Do you remember when you called me every day,
just to hear me breath when you had nothing left to say,
but now you're gone away,
I wonder where you are,
my love is real forever,
you'll be in my heart
I miss you boy,
'cause you're not by my side,
and I'm alone tonight,
I miss your love,
I wanna hold you tight in my arms,
I wanna hold you tight
I wanna hold you tight
you know my love is true,
and I'm missing you, tonight
I love you, Josh.
I'll keep reading every single thing I write here to you. I'm gonna do that right after I finished this, before I have to leave you. Before I sing you the song.
I already miss you to death,
Your Love.
YOU ARE READING
Dear Josh. (a Joshler fanfic) ✔️
Fanfiction"Dear Josh, I started this blog because I want to write you letters so that I can cope with this. I could write you actual letters and give them to you, but you wouldn't be able to read them anyways. So now I'm gonna post them here, and read every...
