His | COMPLETED

3.2

Xander held himself responsible personally. It had been nothing - No! He would never cheat on Sofia no matter how vexed he was with her. He admitted that past few days - weeks had been difficult for both of them, they both failed to understand each other properly and that arose problems but that didn't mean he would go and grope someone else. He was not desperate and if he wanted attention, it was only from her.

It was unexpected when Soniya had attacked him like that, he couldn't forget the repugnant look of Sofia's face as she stared at him. Her face had been blank but her eyes said it all - she was hurt, obviously but she looked at him like he had broken her trust and it twisted his heart. That's when he asked himself that question,

What had he done?

Now, as he looked at her sobbing mess, bawling her eyes out and screaming at him -he felt pathetic and pitiful. He didn't know how to remove this barrier between them and he was terrified to lose her. What if she decided that it was best to leave him? He had told her that he was sick of her and would have left her if they weren't married under certain circumstances but he didn't mean that - he was just angry.

He swallowed thickly looking at her with guilt ridden face. Grabbing her arms her pulled her back and stared at her face. She was still crying, not caring about anything else,

"Sofia I swear-"

"You swear? You swear on what?! Why should I believe you?" She pushed him away, wiping her tears with the back of her hand. "I have been reckless Xander but I never thought my ignorance or hesitation would lead to this." She sniffled, new tears forming in her eyes. He felt so helpless and lowered his eyes to the floor.

"I thought... I thought she was your family friend that's why you were keeping her secrets! Only if I had known Xander!" Her fists clenched like she was trying not to pull her hair out. Xander looked at her shamefully with his lips tugged downwards. 

"Sofia let me explain." He begged her, staring despairingly at her. He knew not to touch her right now for she would smack him but he needed to talk to her. He would tell her everything, every secret, every feeling inside him. He just needed one chance. To hell with all Soniya's secrets and his stupid thoughts, he would tell her everything no matter what.

"No. Tell me Xander, do you care about her?" She asked, glaring at him, daring him to say yes. He had promised himself that he wouldn't lie to her, he would tell her everything and frankly he did care about Soniya - or maybe used to because he thought she was someone who needed his shoulder to cry upon.

"Yes but-" He lowered his eyes to the floor once again. He was ashamed that he cared about someone who ditched him like that, who proved him a cheater in front of the person who trusted him the most. He thought no matter what Soniya was still his friend and he had defended her in front of his wife so many times. Xander had never wished bad upon someone so he thought nobody would do that to him either.

He heard Sofia's breath - her gasp and then her cry. His eyes widened as he realized that it had come out wrong and he needed to make it clear before it's too late.

"Sofia no." He tried grabbing her arm in his but she jumped back and glared at him. "That came out wrong!"

"I am done Xander. It's over!" She yelled at him, wiping her tears and feeling pathetic about it. His heart fell inside his stomach and he swallowed bitterly.

"What? No Sofia I don't care about her I - please it isn't over. Don't say that!"

"It is! Because we are not working out and I am so tired of it." He grabbed her shoulder, stopping her rant, "I don't want you touching me. You cheated and - stop!" She screamed when he once again tried to hold her, "Stop touching me."