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Octavius Naiku is an orphan , a very rude , and mischievous orphan . She aims to care for her baby sister and give her opportunities she never had growing up herself . She aims to fight her way to the top of the Empires Mil...
I feel as though I'm floating on a cloud when I awake . The is an unrecognisable warmth wrapped around me like a cocoon , and I can feel the rise and fall of a hard surface behind me . The warmth is so comfortable I almost think I'm still asleep . I open one eye groggily and look at the large , calloused hand in front of my face . My body tenses and I turn my head slowly behind me , nearly fainting when when I see the sleeping man cocooning my body . I notice how our legs are entwined and the fact that ... that he has no shirt on . The man stirs and moves his head to face upwards and I nearly gasp as memories from the night before flood my brain .
oh no . oh no no no no no no why ? I groan internally and mentally punch myself .
what the hell was I thinking ? I have no idea what was running through my head last night but now I know why they say don't drink that moon-spirit stuff , its dangerous . Uhm yeah I guess I learnt the hard way .
I study lous sleeping figure . He looks much younger and innocent when hes asleep , he looks so peaceful . but doesn't everyone in their slumber ? His lips are slightly parted and my stomach flips at the sight of them , they look so thick and soft . Urghh snap out of it .
At least he's not ugly , I can at least say I don't regret my selection , rather that I made a selection in the first place . I was never that pure to begin with , inside and out . so losing the only bit of my body still clean and innocent is kind of a big deal for me , but why let it faze me ? why let anything faze me ? I mean ive killed people and I'm worried about being fucked ? seriously this is not a priority . But still , I would rather have waited . would I though ? ughh I'm so at war with myself right now . do I let it go and accept it ? or do I regret it for the rest of my life . Regret will only swallow me up whole , will only pull me into a deep abyss I can never escape .
Lou made me feel beautiful last night , he made me feel proud , the way he touched me and looked at me made my heart warm . He made my body burn with a fire I have never felt before and he made me feel so alive , made me feel like there's hope waiting in the dark , like I can still be myself and Octavios the executor . I can still laugh and have fun , I don't have to be so blunt and dry . But isn't that who I am ? I haven't changed at all , I don't think so anyway , ive always been like this , but ive lost a part of myself since being here , I feel more confused about myself then I ever have . I sigh quietly and lay my head back down onto Lou's arm , surprised how comfortable it feels .
Who am I ? do I even want to know ? I feel like I'm spiralling down into infinite nothing ness , I feel like this isn't real , I feel like this is not really happening , but it is and I know it is . I just need someone to tell me who I am , but I don't even know if they know themselves . I need someone to tell me I'm fine , and that I'm not meant to know , that I'm just meant to find out as life goes by , I shouldn't search for it but rather allow it to unravel through the ages .
My life is one big rush right now , I never give anything a second thought , but will that destroy me or make me brave ? i don't know . I need to have a break and allow my mind to process the events of the last few months , I need to actually sit and think , I need a break before I allow the cold to take over my soul
But I don't want to quit , I need to keep going . I can keep going for a little while longer , I need to .
I need to . I have to .
I feel a sigh against my ear and I'm snapped from my thoughts . I turn to face lou who has woken and is staring right at me . He smiles and pulls me closer to him , and I don't pull away .
'' Hi .'' His voice is husky and deep , and I find my stomach flippin and a tingle run down my body .
'' Hi .'' I reply , not really knowing what else to say .
'' Do you remember last night ?'' he questions , his smile growing wider . I gulp and nod, my stomach refusing to calm down .
'' Good.'' He whispers , then smashes his lips agsinst mine .
As soon as they make contact my body erupts into pleasure and I moan and turn my head to push deeper , allowing his tounge to slip in . He grunts and grips my back hard , digging his nails in and making me want to kiss him harder . I Grab his long-braided hair and this time he allows me to . I tug slightly and he growls and flips so he is ontop me of . He Puls away , breathing hard , and tugs at my dress . I lift my arms and arch my back slightly , and when it comes off he moans quietly .
'' Damn .'' he whispers as he trails his hand around my tattoos . I moan when he cups my breast with his hand and he smiles widely , pulling them slightly .
I love this feeling , I regret even thinking about regretting last night , this is pure pleasure .
He smashes his lips against mine again and he pushes himself into me hard , putting his hand on my throat and choking me slightly . I close my eyes and enjoy the feeling , running my hands down his back and raking them back up .
I open my eyes when he pauses to find Lou staring at me with a serious expression .
'' Whats wrong ?'' I ask . He stares at me for a moment longer before smiling and shaking his head .
'' Nothing Octavios , nothing .''
AN // Sorrrry guys media on the top wasn't working , TADAAAAAAA , here is what I imagine Lou to look like :)
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