I woke up a few hours later to the sound of people laughing in the other room. I was debating weather or not to go out there but I needed a coffee stat. I untangled myself from the thin covers the tour bus offered us and climbed down from the top bunk. I took my phone out from underneath my pillow and checked myself in the snap chat camera. I looked a mess, I had a tear stained face...I must have cried myself to sleep again.
I felt so pathetic crying over someone who didn't even really care about me and how I felt.
I went into the back where my belongings were and took out my hair brush, I took off my beanie and brushed the nest that was my hair. I threw my beanie into my luggage and wiped my face with a wet wipe. I felt fresher.
I took a deep breath and made my way into the main room seeing everyone laughing and taking videos of each other. When I entered everyone turned their heads to look at me, my face went heated and I felt a lump form in my throat.
"Hey Allison are you okay, you've been asleep for a while?" Saffron asks me. I nod and give her a small smile. It's all I could offer at the moment.
"Ye-yeah, I'm fine, I'm just gonna make some coffee- do you want any?" I offer the group, they shake their heads and I nod before making my way to the tour bus "kitchen". You couldn't really call it a kitchen as it only had one counter which held a coffee machine, a toaster, a mini fridge and a sink. It's kind of disappointing really.
I grab the coffee beans out of the only cupboard and poured them into the coffee machine, which already had water in it. I turned it on and watched as it crushed the coffee beans- just how Ethan crushed my heart.
The thought makes me tear up but I blink away the tears. I was determined to enjoy today, no matter what. This was my tour too- I had been chosen for this as well. I didn't come here for Ethan or anyone else. I came for myself.
I hear foot steps behind me so I whip around quickly to see who it is. My heart drops as I see Ethan in front of me.
"Allison we need to talk..." He trails off, looking at me- I couldn't tell what he was feeling at the moment he showed no emotion.
"I don't want to talk, we did enough of that over text." I scowl at him, turning away. He comes closer- too close for comfort. "Ethan please just go."
"No! I should have just listened to you, I was just being selfish. I cant help being selfish when it comes to you."
"There's no need to be selfish when it comes to me though Ethan!." I shout.
"Yes there is because if I'm not selfish someone could come along and take you from me and I don't want to lose you. I know we've only known each other for three weeks and yes I know we only properly met each other officially yesterday but I feel a strong connection with you that I've never felt with anyone else before. Not even my own brother." He shouts back. I feel the lump forming in my throat again but I swallow it and breath in.
"By someone, you mean Joe?" I ask calmly.
"Yes I mean Joe but-" I cut him off.
"Me and Joe are friends Ethan, nothing more! I like you! No one else okay but if you can't deal with the fact that I want to wait then obviously this isn't meant to be, obviously it's doomed. I cant be with someone who's going to be jealous every time I go out with a friend."
"Maybe you're right, maybe it is doomed but we will never know unless we try. Can't we just try?" Ethan practically begs. I shake my head.
"My coffee is done." I say turning around again to attend to my one true love. I grab the coffee pot and pour the deliciousness into a mug.
"I see how it is. I'm sorry I bothered you. I'm sorry I ever even messaged you, because if I hadn't we wouldn't be standing here talking about having a relationship that is in your words 'not meant to be'" He says before walking out of the kitchen.
I breath out, not knowing I was holding it in. The tears finally fall. He basically said he regretted everything. Now that I know how he really feels I can move on with my life. I can focus on just me and my career from now on.
I take my mug with me into the main room and place it onto the coffee table. I take my coat from one of the hooks and put it on. The bus had stopped so I decided I should go take a walk by myself to clear my head.
I grab my mug and head for the bus door, not saying goodbye to anyone.
"Allison where are you going?" Joe asks me. I ignore him and leave. Taking small sips of my coffee as I walk to nowhere in particular. I didn't even know where we were or how I was gonna find my way back but I honestly didn't care right now.
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Internet Famous.
FanfictionAllison Harriet's friends make her download vine for the first time, at first she thinks it's ridiculous but once she posts her first vine, her phone blows up causing her to make the decision of creating a YouTube channel. People notice her more an...