Catching Feelings (Justin Bieber bully fanfic)

The reason

"It all begann when you came the first time in the class. I wanted to be coolest kid and I know that wouldn't be easy"
I knew what he mean.

*flashback*
I was so nervous. Today was my first day on my new Highschool. I used to go on another Highschool for one year. But because we moved away I was forced to go to another school.
I opened the door and walked into the class.
"As you can see we have a freshman", my teacher said.
"That is Ariana Grande, she is new here in this town"
"What a looser", a boy with brown hair laughed.
"Justin, please just act like you could be nice", he teacher said.
"Please take a Seat next to Lauren"
This Lauren Kid was very nice. We became friends in half a day.
"They fit perfectly", this Justin said.
"Mrs. Fat and ugly and Mrs. Fat and looser"
The whole class laughed.
"What a kind boy", I mumbled and Lauren laughed out loud.
"For sure"
*end of the flashback*

"Why do you did this to me? What did I ever did to you that hurt you so bad?", I asked.
"Don't act like that. You know exactly what you did"
"No!?!"
"You kidding, aren't you?"
"Of course not"
Justin locked at me with the most guilty face of all the time.
"Oh my god. You really have no clue?"
"No"
"Do you remember when when you hold hands in class with Michael?"
"You are kidding!?"
"You kissed him"
"Justin that was a fucking bet! Both of us got 10$ for kissing each other for three seconds"
"Oh"
"That wasn't the reason why you bullied me for the past years, was it?"
"Kind of.. i had a crush on you and that was my revenge"
"You're kidding"
"No. That's why and because that was the best way to became popular"
"Did you ever felt bad while these years?"
"Sometimes a bit"
"What changed?"
"I took this little joke a little to far. You fucking tried to kill yourself. That changed"
"You told me to 'go and kill myself' "
"I wasn't serious while telling you to do this to yourself. I thought you knew"
"I didn't do"
"How did it start?"
"What do you mean?"
"This depression, anorexic and suicidal thing"
"Not at the same time"
"What was the first thing that happened?"
"The depression came very soon. After two months of bullying I think. But it took a year until I started to hurt myself"
I felt his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer to him.
"I am truly so sorry. When did this anorexic thing happened"
"Do you remember when we had to do this biology project together?"
He nodded slowly.

*flashback*
I stand in front of Justin's house but I was to afraid to ring the bell.
It took a minute until I placed my finger on the bell and I heard a very loud DRING DRING DRING.
I took a deep breath as the buzzer sound came on.
I opened the door.
"We're in the kitchen", Justin shouted.
We? That was partner work, who was there instead of Justin?
Please don't let it be...
Well and there they was. His whole gang was sitting in the kitchen. They ate pizza, drank coke and looked at.
"Do you want some?", Ryan offered.
"No, thank you", I mumbled.
"Yeah I wouldn't eat anything too, if I was that fat"
I wasn't surely the skinniest girl alive.
That was the moment in my life where something changed.
I stopped eating, I did not eat anything anymore until I was 'skinny' I also wanted to be the 'skinny girl' where boys look after and say 'damn she is hot'.
*end of flashback*
I felt my eyes tear up.
"I don't know what I could say to defend myself", Justin said looking down.