rose ≛ taekook

[24]

the cold autumn air struck jeongguk like a slap in the face. he searched eagerly for taehyung.

at his house,
at an old playground,
at his favorite field. (from his knowledge)

but there was one spot he didn't check— the cliff near the small field.

he was afraid of checking there.

he won't be there, he reassures himself. he's not going to kill himself. he's going to be okay.

as every second ticked, he felt more worthless and terrible.

he wondered how terrible it must've been for the poor, scrawny boy.

before he knew it, his feet took him to the cliff, in curiosity, hoping not to see the frail boy.

his heart broke as he spotted an oddly familiar shadow in the distance.

"taehyung!" he yelled out, rushing toward the figure.

taehyung's thin legs were dangling off the cliff, a foggy abyss laying beneath his small feet.

"fuck, oh my god," jeongguk cursed at himself mentally as taehyung turned around slowly.

"you're too late, hyung." taehyung smiled a tiny bit.

"i-i'd like to say sorry—"

"i don't know. i-i killed my own mother, jeongguk. i-i've been treated so terribly. i can't live on like this forever. and...i'm sorry, but i can't accept your apolo...gy." taehyung's voice wavered as he felt like he was of the verge of dying. he can't remember what he last ate.

jeongguk walked closer, but everytime he came closer, taehyung slid down further. "no-no. i don't blame you. your mother was a terrible person anyway."

"who's sane enough to kill their own mother? gosh, i should rotting in hell right now." taehyung's eyes became dull.

"wait, taehyung—"

"i...i can't do this anymore, jeongguk!" he cried silently, his fists clenched.

"no, no, no. stop it. you don't have to die. not yet."

jeongguk hugged him finally, pulling him closer.

"let me die, please." taehyung's face went inhumanly pale as tears came bursting out of his light brown eyes.

"it hurts, please...i...let me die, please.."

"taehyung, stop. i can't let that happen. i'm sorry, i really am."

taehyung's heart slowed down dangerously slow as he cried silently in jeongguk's arms. "i killed my own mother! i killed my own mother..." he trailed off, feeling way too lightheaded. and the light feather-y feeling returned, for the last time.

"taehyung, no. stop. don't-don't go. please, i beg of you—"

his body went limp and cold, his eyes already shut and his pretty lips parted, in jeongguk's arms, and jeongguk cried in the first time in forever.

"no-no-no. taehyung! please, don't go! no, not yet. i-i'm so sorry, please come back. i didn't mean it, don't leave."

taehyung's eyes were closed, he looked whiter than snow. he was so frail and thin.

no wonder he was out cold.

he cried silently, holding taehyung's body close to him.

"i love you."