Alright, I'm back, I've cooled down and this one will also bring down my happiness... as if I had any.
J:
So, if you read the previous parts before I "disappeared", I did mention of him. We weren't really friends with benefits because we didn't do shit. I then realized we were distant and I decided to make a test. I, as an idiot, began to ignore him therefore he would notice. The results... Welp, we went waaaaay back square one. We were then aquatints. It was obviously not what I wanted, so it was my fault.
Then a friend said that J had a crush on me. Well, he didn't fucking acted like he did. Yet, I had a feeling he did. Every time we passed by during passing periods, I'd know that he looked at me. Then, we every time I saw him I'd feel guilt. I can't explain it. I feel like I should be ashamed of myself, but I have my reasons on why I shouldn't.
• He never cared about me in the first place.
• He doesn't know what the word "fuckboy" means and he wears that name in pride.
• I don't date fuckboys.
• He's... pretty stupid.
• He's probably not my type, anyway.
• I always see him talking to other girls.
• And so am I.
So with that said, I still don't know what the fuck is going on. I don't wanna date anyone until I'm ready. I right now need some time to love myself and forgive myself for the things I did and... yeah.
Best wishes always,
Deathfang666
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My Slice of Life With a Cup of Sarcasm
Random~~~ The title says it all, but I'm not gonna leave it alone as my book description. This is a book about me and my thoughts on some topics I know of or what I want to talk about. Requests: Open Best wishes always, Deathfang666
