Shit ton of love for Mei-ling who has been awesome and helped me a lot with this (she said she didn't mind though as she got lot of spoilers from it) because she is evil and stuff so good with the crazy mindset :3 love you <3 don't kill me for the lies I said about what would happen :P
Again a trigger warning (frowny face) but it does get happy at the end, I have now edited this chapter and if you go on my profile you will see the story brotherly love untriggering chapters or something then you can read the safer versions of the chapters there
(charlie is perfect in this no joke) so stay safe guys <3
Phil had spent the next few days crying on and off. Sometimes Dan would be there to comfort him, others he looked and ignored. It was exhausting. Oli wasn't helping much, he kept getting mad at Dan and it was horrible hearing him say terrible things about him even though some were true. Charlie was being sweeter, but it was still hard. He had managed so far to sit with Jason in the library for the past three lunches of the week, even sobbing shamefully into his shoulder when it had gotten too much earlier in the day when he had been beaten up and had a nightmare the night before and it had all just been way too much. Jason had consoled him with a lot of tissues, hugs and a spare chocolate bar he had in his bag, but he couldn't do anything about the bruises. And he definitely couldn't do anything about Dan's 'mood swings'. Actually, make that personality swings.
His daily routine was starting to go a little like this:
Wake up, get dressed, hide bruises, eat something, walk to school, get beaten up at some point, spend the lunch with Jason, go home.
That was the time it would sometimes change. He would have a shower, add foundation and cry, often in his room. Then Dan would come in and either:
- Ignore him
-Give him a hug and say nothing before leaving
-Hold him tightly, whisper comforting words in his hair and not leave until he was feeling better.
All of the above hurt him in some way. Dan would always leave at some point, and then he would be back to his stupid self, not caring and acting like a completely different person.
Then at nights Dan would sometimes slide in beside Phil instantly, or just go his own bed and force himself to leave to comfort Phil if he saw the signs of nightmares. It was all confusing and messing with his head.
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Phil you need to stop this, Dan's being horrible and you know it. You need to stop loving him, it's bad for your mental health for Christ's sake! xx
Oli please. It's not like I'm trying to stay in love with him, but he's around me all the time, and sometimes he's the actual Dan I fell in love with. How am I meant to stop? x
By realising how much of a manipulating twat he is for the rest of the time xx
Oli I know that! I am in love with my fucking brother and he's dating my enemy who wants to kill me while I am being bullied constantly for my sexuality, you don't need to remind me how messed up this whole thing is! My mental health has already been fucked around with by David and Devon so it's not really that surprising that now I'm in love with someone who doesn't even realise they are becoming someone else x
Phil... I'm sorry xx
It's fine I just, I just don't need reminding of how much an idiot Dan is because I get it, this whole thing is toxic x
I know and I'm sorry, I just want you to be okay xx
Me too, but I guess I'm not lucky enough for that to happen x
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Brotherly love (phan)
FanfictionPhil is an orphan, bullied, and living alone with no friends in a home. He does his best not to let that fact that no one seems to care about him get to him, but it's getting harder. Then a nice couple start to take interest in him, and it turns out...
