Mary has been dead for six years. Today I overheard the boys
talking about her, about her death. Sammy’s old enough now
to be asking hard questions, and I think that’s making Dean
think about some things that he’d put away until now. He’s a
tough little kid, Dean. Like me. But he’s also like me in the
way he holds things in. Now his little brother is asking him
things and he’s got to figure out a way to protect Sammy while
Sammy’s questions put him through the emotional wringer all
over again. And what do I do? They were talking to each other.
If I butt in, they’ll clam up. They’ve got the kid bond, the kind that keeps adults out. They’d tell me what I wanted to hear,
but the truth is I can’t get at the real way they feel about their
mother, because I can’t let them get at my feelings. It kills me
every day. There’s no way to tell them that. We have to go on
and find whatever killed their mother, my wife. Mary.
For the boys’ sake, I’m going to try to stay in one place for
longer. Keep the hunting trips to a few hours’ drive. At least
until I have a firmer lead on what killed Mary. Then all bets
are off.
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Journal of John Winchester (Supernatural)
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