Me: *had starved myself because I wasn't happy with my weight* *hasn't eaten breakfast in four days* *had a massive headache a few moments ago from not drinking enough water* *goes to eat, suffering*
Rui: *tells me I can't eat because it's late*
Me: But I never had breakfast.
Rui: *goes on and on about how I should eat food when it's served*
Me: *immediately feels like i let everyone down* *goes silent, my mind beginning to insult me and claim I'm a waste of space, that I'm fat, that I should die*
Rui: *finally stops and walks away*
Me: ....Fine, let me starve then. *planning to starve myself twice tomorrow, skipping breakfast and dinner* *puts the things away, feeling myself about to break down* *goes to my room, closing my door and sitting down on my bed, letting myself finally let go, getting overwhelmed with self-hatred*
