Scars

In love with my ex best friend?

He could make my day,

I had a constant fear he was gay.

I had to stay up to pray,

But I just wanted him to stay.

He left,

Ignored me and left,

His voice was low on the bass cleft,

The final blow left me without breath.

We talked more than 2 months ago,

I found out he's plastic like a Lego,

I want him to stay but I need him to go.

I find myself thinking bout him then I let it go.

 I wonder what would've happened,

If he never ever would've happened.

Why was he a thin as a napkin?

When anything real blackens.

I thought I loved him,

it felt like he put me high on a limb.

I should've known when his eyes looked grim,

and his replies got more dim.

I was told "time will heal the pain."

But why is pain as cold as rain?

Why did I let this other person take the reins?

I can't help but sometimes scratch my brain.

I don't want him back now,

I've found a new 'high" and I don't have to bow.I don't feel like an ugly cow,

I can't help but wonder why and how.

But it's over and I'm glad,

I found out he was just BAD.

He rarely made me mad.

Now he doesn't make me sad.

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Finished May 19th 2014 (5-19-14)

Freshman year about Dylan.