Serendipity

Enlightenment

Zak pov

After the initial shock wore off of Katy recovering her lost memory, the anger kicked in. I knew it would and could have predicted that she would be angry, but not to the level she was now.

"Ka- Katy, Kat, stop!" I spoke as she shoved me in the chest.

"How could you do that to me?!" She screamed, tears streaming down her cheeks. My hands tried to capture hers but the more I tried, the more violent she became.

"Please just let me explain.."

"No! You get out! I want you gone!"

"You don't mean that." I spoke hoping that I could get through to her, but it was pointless. I knew Katy had a temper behind her but I had never experienced it, not until now.

"Don't tell me what I mean!" Her voice broke as a sob racked through her chest. It pained me to see her so upset, but even as I stepped forward to try and comfort her, she went off again.

My back hit against the door as her fists balled up on my chest. "Why? What did she have? Was she more prettier than me?"

"No." I forced seeing my chance to speak with her.

"You're lying. You're lying to me." She cried.

"Katy, sweetheart look at me." I urged trying to take her face in my hands. But she shook her head away from me.

"All of this.. All of it has been because you have a guilty conscience, isn't it? All of it. I bet you thought all your Christmas' came at once when you knew I couldn't remember!"

"It wasn't like that. None of this has been about me. Baby you have to understand me when I say that-"

"Don't baby me! Don't. You. Dare!" She shouted hitting me in the chest.

I took everything she gave, I had too, I owed her that at least. No matter what she did, it would never be enough for what she was most likely feeling right now. I knew that.

Her body went ragged against mine as she cried into me "Why does it hurt so much? Make it go away."

I held her tightly pressing kisses on top of her head when she pulled away. Her face was blotchy from the tears, her hair still damp from the shower and her eyes red. "I want you to go." She ordered.

"What? No Katy, please we need to sit down and talk about this.. Yeah?"

She wiped her face and shook her head "We don't need to talk, I don't need to talk right now. I just need to think."

"Think about what?"

"Us. If I feel like this, then is it all really worth it? Being some dirty secret." She spat in disgust.

"You're not that. I pro-"

"I've only just remembered how I felt back then.. And it's came like a tidal wave."

"Which is why I need to be here with you." I argued. A tense silence fell between us as we looked at each other.

"It was only 5 minutes ago you broke my heart into a million pieces.." She whispered.

My heart sank into the depth of my chest, it may have even slipped into my stomach as I took on board how much I had hurt her. Apart of me knew this was why I never got serious with a woman. Too many feelings were involved and that was something I wasn't prepared to deal with. It was also hard to maintain a relationship when you were on TV. When you had fans. I had tried the serious relationship, she was sent death threats, her house was targetted and the only time she was safe was when she was with me. Although after time she revealed her real colours, I couldn't help but remember how bad it was and the stress it put us both under.