Serendipity

Rage.

The next morning I'm woke with a large hand stroking my hair back. Sighing gently, I push my face into the pillow a little more.

"Come on sleeping beauty." Zak speaks rubbing my back until I submit to his attention and open my eyes.

"I made us breakfast." He smiles holding the tray on his lap.

Breakfast in bed...

"Great." I mumble, wishing I could close my eyes and go back to sleep as the events of yesterday settled on my shoulders almost crippling me.

"Sit up then, silly." He replies standing up and waiting for me to move.

"I'm not really hungry.." I admit.

"Well you have to eat something, you can't take tablets on an empty tummy. So.. Sit up as we can enjoy some French toast, whilst it's still warm."

I roll my eyes and pull myself up straight as the tray settles on my lap. I'm looking down at it, when I notice my clothes.

"Why am I wearing this?" I ask pulling at the top.

Zak slides in the bed and picks up a piece of toast "You thought you were going out for a walk about 4am this morning."

"Sleepwalking... Again."

"Yeah, but it was okay. You didn't get far, partly because you tried to climb over me to get out the bedroom, I guess you thought you were climbing a mountain or something. Either way, I got a knee to the balls and I was wide awake then."

I scoffed, refraining from telling him that even in my sleep walking state, I knew he was an asshole.

"You still mad with me?" He asks quietly as I look at the toast on the plate.

"What's there to get mad about? It's your choice, isn't it?"

"I know but-"

"But what? You don't want children," I interrupt. "I'm not going to persecute  you for it. But I do. Maybe not right now, but in the future? When I'm better? I think I will."

He gives me a soft smile, almost sympathetic. "But you were ready yesterday?"

"No, I really wasn't. I was scared, scared to death about the results that's why I didn't look at them. But I gave myself hope, that I'd be this great mom and would be able to give my child everything..."

"You will be. Just when the time is right."

I nod and eventually stuff a corner of toast into my mouth.

We eat in silence, whilst I go over the events of yesterday in my mind and even let myself divulge in the thought of myself and Zak cradling a small bundle. I'd have a boy and he would look like Zak, a total heartbreaker with the ladies and a smile that could make a witch coo. He'd have his eyes too..

"Come, eat up." He speaks tapping his hand on my knee gently for encouragement.

I chew a little more and go to grab a second slice when he drops the bombshell.

"I made the doctors appointment for 12."

"Appointment for what?"

He looks at me "For the contraception. You know, about changing it over."

The food in my stomach turns to concrete and I almost find it impossible to swallow the mouthful I have.

"You've rung them alr-- This is why you've made me breakfast. To sweeten me up." I accuse.

"No. Not at all."

"You're a filthy liar." I snarl and grab a tissue from beside the bed to empty my mouth.