Part Twenty-Nine. The Breaking Point
I am tired and irritable all of the time, now.
In an attempt to clear the workload as quickly as possible, I’ve been putting in almost twenty hours a day; I know that isn’t good for me, but I just want to get it over with. Wheatley will not talk to me, will not even say good morning like he usually does, and I don’t blame him. I don’t really want to be near me either. I just want to go to sleep, and when I wake up I want all of this to have completed itself, because I’ve finally finished with the error messages and I’m halfway through the disk cleanup, which requires me to suspend a great deal of my processes and leaves me in an uncomfortable sort of limbo. And even though I’ve done all that, I still have to defragment the mainframe, run a virus scan on the database, write her a new phase of updates, not to mention one for myself, and a whole host of other things I don’t want to think about. But am doing unintentionally, as usual.
“Oi. GLaDOS.”
“What,” I say tiredly, glancing over at Wheatley. He doesn’t sound too pleased, but I can’t bring myself to care. I don’t even know what he’s been doing with her all this time. I can’t be bothered to ask or to check with Surveillance.
“I’m going outside.”
“Why do I need to know this?”
“Because you have to watch Caroline.”
“I don’t have time. I’m busy.”
He scowls and shakes his chassis. “Too bad. I need, need some time to myself, for a bit. You’re gonna have to, to make time.”
“That’s absurd. I can’t create –“ But he’s not listening; in fact, he’s already left the room entirely. He didn’t even give me a chance to argue. Now that I think of it, that’s actually a pretty good strategy.
I turn to look at her. She’s on the panel, looking at me expectantly. I have the feeling I should probably have been paying attention to what’s been going on. I have no idea what she and Wheatley have been doing.
“I don’t know what you want me to do,” I tell her. “I have a lot of work to complete. It’s inconsiderate, really, that he left like that.”
She only blinks at me.
“I mean, I know I haven’t been very easy to get along with the last little while, but you’d think Wheatley, of all people, would appreciate that I have a pretty good reason.”
She makes a long, soft noise, and it appears she took to the update as quickly as she took to everything else. Good. That’s encouraging.
“I’m so tired,” I tell her. “I shouldn’t push myself this hard, but… I just want to get all of this done. You understand, don’t you? No. Of course you don’t. You don’t understand anything.”
She makes the same noise as before, and I bring myself closer, intrigued. That strikes me as odd, that she would do that when there are so many other variations she could build. Maybe she does understand. A little. I don’t know what part, but… she seems to understand something.
“Do you?” I ask. “Do you have any idea what I’m saying right now?”
When she doesn’t do anything, I suppose not.
“It doesn’t matter,” I say resignedly. “It doesn’t matter whether you understand me or not. I have work to do, so you’re going to have to entertain yourself.” I turn away.
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