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o24. 🥀 [rant/vent]
to: dearreaders@gmail.com
subject: idek tbh ahaha

idk but this is just something that
makes me angry when i think about
it,, it's something my mom told me
yesterday and no it's not something
she did, it's something someone who
idek did.

so some background information first
or else you probably won't understand
why i'm so mad every time i think of this:

when i was little my parents had just
moved to canada (i'm indo-canadian
although i don't like that term? + i was
born here) so of course like most
immigrants they started off with not much.

but my dad toiled and worked hard
every single day. every day to get
where he is now. even when he lived
in india he didn't have much growing
up, just a house and enough money
to get through college (which coincidentally
his dad- my grandfather, worked
extremely hard for. he actually would
go abroad and work there to earn
money). and then my mom, she was
very little when it happened but she
still remembers when she had to
evacuate her house (it was more of a
mansion tbh) and they left all this
stuff behind to run for their lives. i
really won't go into full details because
it's really sad and yeah i cry when i
write it. but the point is when she
moved to another house she also
started over with nothing.

so then they came to canada, and
it's truly a blessing that i was born
in this country. that sounds like
i'm bragging but no, i mean it. canada
is a great place to live in comparison
to other places in the world.

my dad is an engineer and he started
a business here. and it started out little,
he had to use every penny for this
project from both my mom's earnings
and his. so then the guy who he made
the project for decides that he's not
going to pay him. and when my mom
was talking about this yesterday it
made me so incredibly mad. unbelievably
mad.

and yeah, maybe we don't need the
money right now. but then? we
needed every penny we could get to
get by and save up for a better house
(we used to live in a one story house
on a highway which was nice but not
very convenient if you have a big family).

maybe it's just me because i get worked
up about the silliest things sometimes,
but i feel so mad at this dude because
my dad never got his money (since they
actually didn't have a contract at that
time, my dad trusted him ig).

but stuff like this still happens, y'know?
maybe not to my parents but to other
people who are 'easy to take advantage
of.' and then i hear my mom talking
about how a guy hasn't given us a cheque
yet and he keeps on ignoring her phone
calls so of course i get mad. my parents
and other people work so hard for you
to not pay them for doing their job.