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o32. 🏳️‍🌈 [pride month]
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subject: pride month tag

1 | sexual orientation
bisexual + also really confused because
i don't know if i'm aromantic or not and
i just feel real bad saying that i am if i'm
not sure??? to be honest i just have a
dozen friend crushes on people because
i so badly want to spend time and talk
to people and hang out but just as
friends. i really have no idea where to
draw the line on that tbh? i really can't
see myself being in a relationship with
most people unless i actually really know
them and that's the thing where i'm
confused because i can crush/like like
on (no kidding) 37 people at the same
time wow. so yeah, i'm bisexual but
have no idea if i'm aromantic too.

2 | gender
cis girl

3 | pronouns
she/her

4 | favourite colour from the pride flag
my favourites are red, violet and indigo

5 | what pride means to me
it means i embrace who i am,
it means that i'm no less than
anyone else because i also like
girls, it means that i can be myself

6 | favourite lgbtq+ allies
people who respect us and
understand that they are
allies but not a part of the
community

— — [ rant ahead ] — —

my dad left for a business trip again and i'm really sad because it's like i hardly get to see him around anymore, and i know when my grandparents come back from india it's not really going to change as i'll see less and less of him because we uhhh have a lot of family issues and i just wish that he could be happy for once. ig it fucking goes to show you that even if you have money doesn't mean that you're happy. what's the point lmao? i feel like money and currency was just made to stop us from truly achieving happiness and a greater meaning. i mean i understand that it's a way to bring order if that makes any sense so we have like a regular flow of money through the economy but to put short money and status and all that shit was just made for needy people (in the sense that they had to prove that they're better than others).

anyone want to trade grandparents with me, because i will do so gladly. no returns or refunds. :)))) i would sell them on ebay if that was legal. whoops. i have a lot to say but i'm really stopping myself oop.

but i just really want to ask, how do you guys deal with your anger? because anger is nothing to be ashamed about and i feel it all the time but i have no idea how to control it or use it for my own benefit. usually i get annoyed and i can go without not saying anything until i calm down over time or sleep on it (which is quite a sucky thing to do tbh) but I want to know how to control real anger. anger for me is basically when i think that someone wronged my family, and i just act like a mad dog (sorry i love dogs it's just a dumb expression). and it's not mild anger it's full out angry like i could really hurt something (which uhh worries me, i mean i'd never hurt someone i care about physically but maybe in a given situation i would beat someone up if it came down to that.) I really have a strong sense of 'justice' smh.

i just want to be petty and throw shade but i can't really do that ig if the person i'm shading doesn't even have wattpad lmao. watch me delete this later ;O