Abandoned wife

Chapter 6

Akshay sat on the chair placed in the garden. He holds one glass of scotch in one hand while other one is resting on arm of chair. This drinking session satisfy his need of solitude where he can think. He brings out Smita's picture from his pocket and placed it on table against him.
"You gave me so much pain Smita now its my time to payback everything. You will be torn shades by shades just like me. I'll make sure you will be broken as much as I am where nothing can fix you. These flames which burns me constantly will burn you too. Be ready for the hell I am going to give you. "he resolves and gulp whole glass in one go.

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"LEAVE SMITA, I SAID JUST LEAVE " she awake with a jerk. Her clothes drenched in sweat. She puts her hand on her heart which is racing in marathon speed.She rubbed it gently to ease it. Her mouth is drying and breathing hitched. She pick glass of water from side table and drank in one go. She wipes her face with the help of handkerchief. Its not new to her. She is facing it from a long time. Initially it occurred monthly but as the time passes it starts occurring weekly, biweekly and nowadays it occurred on daily basis. When it first happened she thought its aftermath of ugly breakup. She was so much into this relation that his words haunt in her sleep.

Time will heal it but as the days passes intensity of her nightmares increased. She didn't realised when her sleepy self turnes into an insomniac jombie. She twist and tossed in bed and suddenly speed of clock slow down. It tooks eternity to clock for switching to next number. Sometimes she checked facebook and watched videos to pass time . This is resulting to dark circle and puffy eyes but she hardly cares. Its very difficult to pass the time ranging twelve to four in night after that sleep took over her but this constant nightmares deteriorating that too .

She moves her hand in her hairs and clock is ticking 8.She doesn't have time to mourn on this issue any further. She headed towards washroom. She removes her clothes and tossed in laundry bag. She tapped the shower on. The cold water is soaking her sweaty skin,soon her tears joined the water in drenching her. She felt suffocated.This is sucking her strength. The thousands of thought runs in her head whenever she is alone. She holds her head tightly to suppress the thought but instead of that unanswered question make more strong entry.

Why I am not able to forget him?

He doesn't turned back to look at me that how I was doing. Why he doesn't think for a minute about me.

Is Smita fine?

Is Smita alive without me ? Why this question not rang in his mind.

He turns his back towards me, leaving me all alone in this world. I should have forget him but each attempt turns futile. The more I try the more I remember him.

She heard giggled of school girls from outside and move her fingers in hair.

Whole world living happily with their family what sin I did to deserve this. I am also longing for a family. I want someone to cuddle me, love me, praise me, hold me in tough time.
Is it too much to ask?

"Why?" She screamed and fall on the floor of bathroom.
The loneliness eating her alive on daily basis. She felt, she is loosing small percentage of herself everyday.

"Is it that difficult to have one drop of love.?" She wants to ask her creator why he wrote her destiny this way.
More she thought, more she get frustrated. She hugged her herself and sobbed.

She doesn't want to struggle on daily basis to pay bills and run errands.She did not want to be workholic but nowadays only work and Akshita keep her sane. She can't imagine her life without her. She is the only one who can lit her dark world.