Alright
oof what do I say
ok im writing down everything im thinking
and I don't plan on erasing it
I don't think that's how you spell it
anyway
so
I
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ok good news first
Im almost at 5k views
which is fucking amazing thank you all very very much youre all fucking wonderful people
ok so now bad/less than good news
1.I have no fucking Idea what to write
2.I have no motivation
3.Im going through some personal issues now and I cant update as much as I used to
^correction: For the past 2ish weeks I haven't been posting accept for yesterday and the day before but im gonna try to post frequently now
ok that's all for the bad/badish news
now some random updates yall don't wanna hear
1.I wanna write a new book but I don't know what it should be
(ideas would be helpful)
2.I bought these cool Jack Skellington pajama pants(reallllyyyyy fluffy)literally a day ago and I already got spaghetti sauce on them
3.Im starting to really get good at piano which is a very good thing(atleast to me it is)
4. I still don't have any friends
5. and recently every fucking mental disorder I have seems to have fucking increased in intensity
I hope that makes sense
like uhh
oh whats an example I can use
ok so
My bpd is going fucking insane
im cutting off people in my life that I actually need
im lashing out on people
I don't know what the fuck I am anymore
that's the only example im gonna give you cause I don't want you to think im crazy ahaaaaaaaaa
anyway
5.Half my family has voted to put me in a mental asylum so im terrified cause I dunno if theyre gonna do it or not
alright that's enough about me
so uh
bye guys
love you all
