BTS LOVE YOURSELF - THE NOTES (ENGLISH TRANSLATION)

'tear' Hoseok's Notes °20 May Year 22°

Year 22
20 May
(Part 2)

The first time I saw the scars on Taehyung's back
was when I met him at Namjoon's container hideout.
Taehyung left everyone speechless with his
cute smile as he put on his new shirt.

A part of my heart broke at how happy he was
over such a small insignificant thing we took for granted.

I had no parents.
I couldn't remember my mother or father really.
I only knew my mother up to the age of seven.

When we spoke about the pain our parents had
inflicted and caused in our childhoods,
I had received enough for my lifetime.

People say you have to overcome pain,
accept what happened and get used to it.
You have to reconcile and forgive them.
That it's the only way to live and move on.

It's not like I don't know this.
It's definitely not that I refuse to forgive them out of hatred.
Some things can't be done by just trying.

Nobody has told me how to forgive and move on.
Before the world hardened me as I am today,
it gave me fresh wounds.

I hope there aren't any parole that haven't
gotten any emotional wounds yet.
They can teach you how to persevere.

But why such deep wounds?
Why is it necessary?
Why do we have to live like this?

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Taehyung finally spoke as we reached the crossroads:
"It's okay, Hyung. I can go alone from here."

"I know."
I answered, taking the lead.

"It's seriously okay. Look. I'm fine!"
Taehyung smiled.

I didn't respond.
There was no way he'd be alright so quickly.
He's really not okay.
But I guess, if he doesn't acknowledge he
isn't alright then he will be alright.

He's ignoring it.
It's become a habit.

Taehyung flipped his hoodie off his head
and caught up, following me.

"You're really not hungry?" I asked him as we reached his house.

Taehyung grinned dumbly and nodded.
I watched him walk through his home's corridor,
his back turned to face me.

I turned key back on him soon after.

The corridor of his home and the road I was now
walking were both narrow and desolate.

We were both alone.

I was just about to turn around to see
taehyung once more when my phone rang.