BTS LOVE YOURSELF - THE NOTES (ENGLISH TRANSLATION)

'answer' Seokjin's Notes °30 August Year 22°

Year 22
30 August
(Part 5)

The notebook held even more memories than I'd expected.
On top of the written letters,
in between the margins,
in the once blank spaces...
This is where the memories were
my father had wanted to forget.
Things he'd decided to not remember.

Like the indentations made when writing
and having the color faded,
my fingertips touched the memories
my father had left behind.
His fears.
His struggles.
His despair.
His weakened hopes.
The map of my father's broken soul lay
before me in this little notebook.

I cried as I closed the notebook.
I cried for a long time and still,
as I finally lifted my head,
everyone was still asleep.
As I looked at everyone's faces one by one,
I realized we were meant to come back here.

This is the place where our friendship had started.
I understood the meaningfulness behind us laughing
together and doing things together. 
My heart felt light thinking about those memories.

My first fight.
The mistakes I'd never admitted to out loud.
Those memories weighed my heart down like a deep wound.

Maybe none of this happened by chance.
Maybe I had to come here and find that notebook.
It was the only way I'd been able to
realize my mistakes anyways.
And relapse the anxiety and pain I'd had as a result.

For the first time, I was able to find the map
to my soul and dig deeper to understand myself more.