Chapter 13: Past Shall Be Forgotten

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Chapter 13: Past Shall Be Forgotten

I just stared at them with my tears freely falling down my cheeks. I have no right to cry and be hurt like this because there's nothing between us. We don't have any label in life.

Maybe Shone saw me staring at them. So he immediately hugged me tight.

Shit, thank you Shone.

Kahit ang isip ko, umi-english na. Pumikit na lamang ako. I can't stand this situation anymore.

Ryder and another girl is kissing each other. I wouldn't feel so hurt if I just saw the girl kissing him first. But, fuck! Ryder is kissing back! At ang malala, hindi niya tinutulak palayo ang bwisit na kahalikan niya.

Pareho silang bwisit!

Lakas ng loob manligaw, may babae pala. Putcha.

"We need to go." I whispered. Tumango siya. "Fuck him. He's an asshole." Shone hissed. Pinunasan ko ang luha ko at mabilis na hinila si Shone paalis. Heck! 'Yung daan patungo sa exit, halos katabi nila.

We have no choice. Madadaanan namin sila.

I felt my heart suddenly ache while we're slowly walking towards their direction. I gripped my hands tighter to Shone's. I smiled at him. I hugged him.

I saw Ryder looked at us. I looked at him, emotionless. Lumingon ako kay Shone at nakatulala lamang ito sa akin. "Thank you, Shone. I want to end this. I want to move on. Help me, Shone." nakayuko kong sabi sa kaniya. Nakita kong ngumiti siya.

"Like what I've said," pinunasan niya ang luha ko sa pisngi. "even if I am just a rebound. Kahit panakip-butas lang ako sa puso mo, nandito lang ako. Handa akong mahalin ka." nakangiti nitong sabi.

Lintek, ang bait ni Shone.

I didn't hesitate when I told him those words. I think it's time to move on. I saw enough evidences. Ryder's just playing around me. He's a total jerk.

Bakit ko sasayangin ang puso ko sa isang manloloko, diba?

Umalis na kami ng pwesto namin at medyo lumayo na kina Ryder. Nanghihina ang mga tuhod ko.

Nang napansin ni Shone na panay ang sulyap ko kina Ryder, he held my cheeks, at walang ano-ano, siya ay lumapit sa akin.

And he kissed my lips.

I was taken aback as he kissed me. It's a short one. Napakurap ako. Ramdam ko ang pagkakrera ng puso ko.

This might be the signal for me to start over, to start moving on.

Pinutol niya ang halik at nginitian ako. I saw Ryder walk away together with the girl while they are holding each other's hands.

"I hope you can move on. At alam kong kaya mo iyan. I trust you." sabi ni Shone. I bit my lip to prevent my self from crying. Loving a mysterious guy like Ryder is hard. I can't help it.

"Just cry. I am here to cure your heart." saad niya. "B-but Shone, sasaktan lng kita. I don't want you to get hurt that way." I told him while feeling guilty. He just smiled. "Kung ayaw mo, eh di ako nalang ang kusang gagawa n'un." he replied.

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Lumipas ang maraming araw at siya pa rin ang nasa isip ko. Damn, paano magmove-on? Ilang tanong na ang nasa isipan ko palagi.

Mahal pa rin ba niya ako? May pag-asa pa kaya ako? Posible bang lasing lang siya? Baka hindi niya sinasadya. Baka akala niya ako 'yung babaeng hinalikan niya. Baka wala lang siya sa tamang pag-iisip n'ung mga oras na iyon.

But I need to move on. I need to look forward, and forget the past.

I got up and got a book. At pinaglalaruan ako ng tadhana, isang malaking quote ang bumungad sa akin.

"I planted a flower that will never bloom, not even in my dreams that won't come true."

Napatitig ako sa librong nakuha ko. It's a book of quotes. Akmang ibabalik ko na ito nang may makita akong pahina na kumuha ng atensyon ko.

"I diverted my gaze at someone, but my mind and heart says never and that's where I realized, that I still want you."

"What the.. Gosh!" napapikit na lamang ako. Nagbasa muna ako ng mga quote. Shit! Nakakarelate ako!

"You must be sorry for abusing my emotions, wasting my heart, stealing it, playing it, and breaking it. You deserve more than a slap."

"Ayoko na nga!" sigaw ko at ibinalik ang libro. Nang ibinalik ko na, may nahulog na punit na pahina nito. Binasa ko itong muli.

"Maybe it really is true that I can't live without you, but when you left me, I realized that you really weren't enough for me."

"Eh, 'di wow!" irap ko sa papel at tinupi ito ng marahas. Inilagay ko ito sa loob ng librong kinuha ko at saka humiga sa kama.

"I am really going crazy. My goodness! I need to refresh my mind." iritang sabi ko sa sarili at lumabas. At sa 'di inaasahang pangyayari, I saw him.

Outside my house.

"Azaleah."

You jerk.

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