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Bun 🐰JIMIN
hey bun.. have you left yet?JUNGKOOK
not yet, noJUNGKOOK
hobi just got here, why?JUNGKOOK
whats up?JIMIN
oh.. you're with someone elseJIMIN
nvm it's stupid..JUNGKOOK
no it's notJUNGKOOK
is it about us?JIMIN
I mean.. it could be? idrkJUNGKOOK
he's gonna drive anyways, go aheadJIMIN
you sure it's okay..JUNGKOOK
yeahJIMIN
okayJIMIN
well then.. I just had a question I guessJUNGKOOK
shootJIMIN
what if..JIMIN
umJIMIN
what if you end up finding someone you DO love?JUNGKOOK
ohJUNGKOOK
uhm..JUNGKOOK
haven't thought much about it nglJUNGKOOK
if it happens..JUNGKOOK
then ill just have two priorities. simpleJIMIN
her and nayeon?JUNGKOOK
guess so, yeahJIMIN
it makes sense now tho..JUNGKOOK
what does?JIMIN
why you only have one night stands..JUNGKOOK
well.. I haven't in a while but yeahJIMIN
it's so you don't get attached, isn't it?JUNGKOOK
kindaJUNGKOOK
im much more confident when drunkJUNGKOOK
when im drunk im very honest.. like so much that it's just blatant at this pointJUNGKOOK
it's easier to tell them no when im pissed out of my mind and they ask for something moreJUNGKOOK
I know im not like that when im sober tho.. I have a hard time saying no because I don't wanna acknowledge that im hurting someone, you know?JUNGKOOK
ive definitely hurt girls before when ive left before they even woke up..JUNGKOOK
I have to be drunk for me to even have sex.. I just have to beJUNGKOOK
I cant think about it.. I don't wanna be in a conscious state when I do itJIMIN
ohJUNGKOOK
it's fucked up and weird.. I knowJUNGKOOK
im certainly not proud of itJIMIN
why do you do it so often? are you stressed a lot?JUNGKOOK
that's part of it, I guessJUNGKOOK
its mainly my desire to actually have that with someone, it's stupidJUNGKOOK
I WANT to be with someone, but I just can't.. thats the closest ive ever been to itJUNGKOOK
I like being able to be close with someone without needing to worry about actually being with them..JUNGKOOK
its kinda pathetic butJUNGKOOK
idk..JUNGKOOK
I hold a LOT of false confidence, im not necessarily proud of being with so many women like thatJUNGKOOK
I haven't told anybody this but I honestly only do it bc I just long for what im missing..JUNGKOOK
I don't do it for the cliché fuckboy title.. I don't do it to "get tons of pussy" or whateverJUNGKOOK
that aspect of it's just fucking useless, in my opinionJUNGKOOK
I do it because its all I can offer someoneJIMIN
Jungkook..JIMIN
oh my god.. :(JIMIN
you've never been in a relationship, have you?JUNGKOOK
noJUNGKOOK
and ive always planned on keeping it that way..JUNGKOOK
but I don't know how long I can keep doing itJUNGKOOK
it gets to me most of the timeJUNGKOOK
I have to be drunk out of my mind to even partly provide anything for anyone..JUNGKOOK
ive thought about stopping it before, I really haveJUNGKOOK
it's the only comfort I can get anymore thoJUNGKOOK
pathetic how I have to be mind numbed to feel any kind of pleasure from a woman, isn't it?JUNGKOOK
yet with you it was so simple..JUNGKOOK
yeah, it is. it really isJUNGKOOK
but there's nothing else I can do to help myselfJIMIN
of course there is Jungkookie... :( you just have to let yourselfJIMIN
let yourself have that with someone..JIMIN
even if it's not me..JIMIN
talk to some girls tonight, just see what happens, okay?JUNGKOOK
alright.. if you think it'll help
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Fanfiction❝ don't fucking lie to me, jungkook. im just another one of your filthy whores. ❞ don't be fooled by his charm; pretty boys hold darker secrets than one would think. #completed ____________ written!au | media!au | nsfw! [WARNING] Ranked #1: Transi...