Vulnera Sanentur

Five

After class had finished, Snape stood by his desk, one hand resting on the surface while the other stayed by his side, wand in hand. Students fled as Snape waited patiently. When they had all gone, Snape used his wand to close the door and lock it. I assumed that it was to ensure we would have no interruptions this time.  

I kept my eyes down on m y desk as he looked at me again. "Where was your mind in class?" 

"On the subject." I lied. I was unsuccessful, but I tried nonetheless. Snape rolled his eyes at me. 

"Dont lie to me." His voice was stern. I coward away and he sighed. 

I shook my head lightly. I couldnt tell him I was nervous about sleeping with him. Or even kissing him. I couldnt. I took in a deep breath as he approached me. 

"Rowan, look at me." His voice was gentle as he kneeled beside me. I placed my quill down, looking to the man knelt down to my left. "There is nothing you can say that can scare me away." His onyx eyes studied me carefully.

 I rubbed at my leg to take the moisture from my hand. My face contouring with fear. "Professor, I cant tell you." My voice was quiet. rarely being used these days. Severus Snape reached his hand up and took my hand. I looked to his large hand encasing my smaller hand. I knew who he was and what he had done. I didnt care. 

I chewed my lip for a long moment. The potions classroom was empty except for us. It was so quiet and peaceful in here, but I felt nothing but fear. I took my hand from his, gathering my things in my arms. "I need to go, Sir." I spoke softly.

 I stood quickly, heading towards the door. Snape stood now, following me. He sighed, towering over me. I tried the door, but he had locked it. I turned to face him, his face was inches from mine, looming over me. My heart thudded in my chest and I felt as though it would stop at any moment. 

Severus reached his hand to my face, cradling it gently. His eyes were soft and kind as he moved a step closer. 

"Take a deep breath, Love." He breathed out. His warm breath fanned my face, making me close my eyes. Did I want this? I felt the nerves calm as I opened my eyes to look at him again. His eyes captivated me like no others had and I felt it. I felt the desire to be touched, kissed, by this man. 

His mouth collided with mine in a gentle kiss. I tensed at first, but his hand placed to my side, and I relaxed. The kiss was small, sweet, and subtle. I felt my breathing speed up and my eyes fluttered open as he pulled away. 

He took a single step back and gave a smirk to me. "I want you to feel comfortable with me," He whispered. "Whatever it is that is bothering you, please, let us work on it together." His hand left my face before he removed the other, clasping them behind his back now. I nodded slowly, looking down as I felt the blood rush to my cheeks. 

"I didnt lie that day in the Forest. You are beautiful." He took another step back as my face heated once more.  "You are dismissed, Rowan." 

I nodded quickly, turning to unlock the door but my hands stumbled with nerves and adrenaline. Snape chuckled, unlocking the door for me. I thanked him quietly and rushed through the door. I kept my head down as I walked to the bathroom. My fingers touched my lips as soon as the door closed. 

His touch was peaceful and calm, unlike my fathers rough hand. I took in a deep breath as I licked my lips. His taste lingered there. My head was spinning now, unsure of what to feel. My body had never longed to be touched by anyone, never wanted to be kipped, yet here I was craving more of what hed just done to me. 

What has he done to me?