Some Secrets Are Meant To Be Kept[Lashton]

Chapter 6

AN: I FINALLY UPDATED!!!!!!!

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*Ashton's POV*

Rehearsals didn't go so well. I guess you could say that since I've been locked in my room I didn't play for a little bit. Of course the other boys did well and here I was breaking a bunch of drumsticks.

I think the reason why I didn't do so well is because in the middle of rehearsals Amber showed up. Don't get me wrong she's a nice girl I just would've liked it better if she didn't show up.

And the final thing to add to my list of why rehearsals didn't go so well is because the boys started getting annoyed with me. While on break Calum, Luke, and Michael all huddled together and started talking leaving me out. They probably were talking about how big of a fail I am. At least Amber was nice enough to come talk to me while the other three left me out.

When we left rehearsals we got in the car and went back to the house before the concert that night. When I got into the car I immediately put in my earbuds shutting the world out.

Music is my other escape from the cruel thing called life. Music and cutting are my only ways of letting out all my pain. (This is also true for me) I decided to listen to Pierce The Veil's album Collide With The Sky. While I was listening King for a Day came on.

[Vic Fuentes & Kellin Quinn]

Dare me to jump off of this Jersey bridge?

I bet you never had a Friday night like this

Keep it up, keep it up, let's raise our hands

I take a look up at the sky and I see red

Red for the cancer, red for the wealthy

Red for the drink that's mixed with suicide

Everything red

[Kellin Quinn]

Please, won't you push me for the last time

Let's scream until there's nothing left

So sick of playing, I don't want this anymore

The thought of you's no fucking fun

You want a martyr, I'll be one

Because enough's enough, we're done

[Vic Fuentes]

You told me think about it, well I did

Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore

I'm tired of begging for the things that I want

I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

[Vic Fuentes]

The thing I think I love

Will surely bring me pain

Intoxication, paranoia, and a lot of fame

Three cheers for throwing up

Pubescent drama queen

You make me sick, I make it worse by drinking late

[Kellin Quinn]

Scream until there's nothing left

So sick of playing, I don't want to anymore

The thought of you's no fucking fun

You want a martyr I'll be one

Because enough's enough, we're done

[Vic Fuentes]

You told me think about it, well I did

Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore

I'm tired of begging for the things that I want

I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

[Kellin Quinn]

Imagine living like a king someday

A single night without a ghost in the walls

And if the bass shakes the earth underground

We'll start a new revolution now

(Now! Alright here we go)

[Vic Fuentes]

Hail Mary, forgive me

Blood for blood, hearts beating

Come at me, now this is war!

Fuck with this new beat

Oh!

[Kellin Quinn & Vic Fuentes]

Now terror begins inside a bloodless vein

I was just a product of the street youth rage

Born in this world without a voice or say

Caught in the spokes with an abandoned brain

I know you well but this ain't a game

Blow the smoke in diamond shape

Dying is a gift so close your eyes and rest in peace

[Vic Fuentes]

You told me think about it, well I did

Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore

I'm tired of begging for the things that I want

I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

[Kellin Quinn]

Imagine living like a king someday

A single night without a ghost in the walls

We are the shadows screaming take us now

[Vic Fuentes]

We'd rather die than live to rust on the ground

Shit"

The lyrics Red for the drink that's mixed with suicide speak to me.

The red drink is my my blood that I thirst to see run down my wrists after I cut. And suicide. I want to commit so badly but I'm afraid. I'm afraid to do it. I don't know why I mean no one will miss me.

I've been wanting to do it for a while now. But there's a problem. I'm afraid. And also I think I deserve to feel this pain instead of just dying and not feel anything at all. I deserve every hate comment and every slice to my wrist.

I deserve it all.

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AN:

I have updated don't you worry. I'm not dead. I've been so busy with school it's not even funny.

I'm not able to update as much as I want but I'll try.

Sorry if the song lyrics are wrong. I tried.

Thanks for the support I've been getting on this story.

I kinda wanna delete this story but then I realized that people actually read this and enjoy it. Those people are what make me want to continue this story and that what we shall do.

Sorry this is short because I'm in a hurry and plus this is unedited.

I'll try and update soon and if I don't please don't panic because I'm not going anywhere.

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