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"Come here, and spent 24 hours with me."

You were silent for a while.

"What?"

I sigh, and hold my phone tightly.

"Come here and spen-"

"I clearly heard it."

Moments of silence.

"Please..."

...Is all i can say.

You were silent, again. I shut my eyes closed.

"Okay."

The corner of my lips move slightly upward when i heard that word.

"But why?"

You suddenly ask.

I stop walking and look up at the sky.

I smile.

"Because..."

Five minutes before six pm you came into my house.

All smile.

Showing your perfect gummy smile.

I walk closer to you and put you in my embrace. And you did the same.

"I love you, Jennie."

"I love you too, Lisa."

We smile at each other.

I kissed you on your forehead before you sat on the couch and i sit besides you.

"Tangled again?"

You laugh softly when you saw what i was watching.

"My favorite."

I wrap my arms on your shoulder and you snuggle on my neck.

I smile.

Morning came and waking up with the most beautiful person in my life was all i can wish for.

"Wake up my beautiful nini."

I said after i gave you a kiss on your forehead.

You slowly open your eyes and stare at mine.

"Good morning."

You said with your morning voice 

I smile.

"Good morning to you too my angel, breakfast is ready."

You suddenly scream when i carry you on bridal style. But i only laugh at your reaction, and so you did the same.

I brought you on the dining area and feed you like a baby. I throw some silly jokes that makes you laugh.

Oh how much i love your laughs.

After that we cuddle all day long on my bed. Hugging, tickling, teasing each other like a teen.

My room filled with our laughter.

Oh how much i wanted to record your laugh, your giggles, your voice.

And then the sun setting down quickly without us noticing it.

We ate together again. We wash the dishes like a kid, splashing bubbles, teasing and making face like the old times.

I smile again while watching you wiping your face full of bubbles.

And then we came back again to my bed.

Staring at each other.

My eyes memorizing every inch of you.

How your cat-eyes blink.

How your lips move whenever you breath.

I want to get my camera and took a picture of you, but i don't wanna ruin the moment.

I tuck your hair in your ear.

"i love you, Jennie."

I whispered.

You shut your eyes closed before answering.

"I love you too, Lisa."

I smile.

I stroke your hair gently until you fell asleep.

And that's the moment when tears start escaping my eyes.

I bit my lower lip hardly, trying my best not to suppress any sobs.

Because i don't wanna wake you up and catch me crying silently.

It's hard to cry silently.

It feels like there's a big anchor tied on your heart. And you can't do anything to remove it.

but i keep staring at you while tears streaming down on my cheecks.

Four walls of this room witness every single tear that left my eyes.

Moments later, I took a deep breath before i move closer to you, and pull you into tight embrace. Wanted you to feel my warmth.

I put your head on my chest. Wishing that you'll hear my heart beats only for you in your dream.

I kissed your head and smile, before i jump into deep slumber.

Dreaming of you, of us, genuinly happy. 

"...I'll make things right."

"Lisa..."

"Even just for 24 hours. Please, act like you love me."

Silent fill the other line.

"Before you leave, just let me try. Whether it's wrong or right, i just want to make sense of it."

I heard her sigh in the other line.

"Just one more night, so I can forget."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. And please, when you go, I can't watch you leave. Just promise me you'll sneak out when I'm asleep."

Silence, again.

"Just act like you love me, for the last time. So i can go on."

Long pause until she say...

"Okay, i'll do it."

And when i wake up, exactly 7:05 am, silence fill my room.

Memories of yesterday slowly sinking on me.

How you say 'i love you too' on me but didn't have any spark on your eyes.

How you keep on looking at your phone while we cuddling.

How may times you tried touching your phone when i'm not looking at you.

And how you shut your eyes when you said you love me too last night just to prevent seeing pain in my eyes.

I almost fell on your act, not until i saw your eyes.

There's no spark on them anymore.

Clearly, you're not inlove with me anymore.

I smile, again, with tears on my eyes.

I woke up, and i wish everything was just a dream.