Music

Unchanged

Note: short update because i'm sick af and school works killing me.

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A tall figure of a woman can be seen at a lonely road, standing under the lamp post while holding a bottle of whiskey on her hand and head hung low.

It's Lalisa Manoban; A well known dancer before on a well known girl group, looks so wasted and broke.

Lisa slowly slide herself down, burying her face on her arms while silently sobbing.

She shot her head up, looked at the stars and smile sadly. She drank on her alcohol and let out a deep breath as a memory flashes her on her head.

"Until when you'll gonna love me Jen?"

Lisa said while looking up on the stars, arms on the back of her head making it her pillow while laying on the grass. While Jennie's head resting on her chest.

"Until my last breath, Lisa."

Lisa smile at her answer then kissed the top of Jennie's head, she gently caress the brunette hair that makes Jennie feel sleepy and comfortable.

"Can you hear my heart beat? It only beats for you."

Lisa whispers, and it's Jennie's turn to smile.

"I will do anything for you Jennie, i love you so much."

Lisa laugh dramatically, stand up from her seat and start walking.

Just remembering it makes her feel bitter.

"Jennie... why?"

She utter, draging her feet into somewhere. Lisa didn't even try to wipe her tears because she knows it will just fall continuesly.

"Until your last breath huh?," she drank on her whiskey again. "Fuck."

Lisa almost stumble on her feet because alcohol starts to kick on her, but she manage to keep her composure.

"Why?"

She whispered, mostly to herself.

"The managements found out, Lis."

She remembers Jisoo's voice, lisa closed her eyes.

"I'll let you choose, your dreams or your selfishness."

This time, it's YG's voice that makes lisa quiver

"Jen, i already told YG that i will give up my career. I choose you Jen. We can start over now, we can make our names without their help."

Lisa said with smile on her face, but immediately vanished because of Jennie's reaction. It was cold and emotionless. Staring into nothingness.

"Jen."

She called out again. And Jennie turn her attention on Lisa.

"I'm sorry Lisa, but i can't risk everything."

Lisa open her eyes up, taking a deep breath while holding her chest.

Its been two years.

Two years, yet she's still miserable.

She's happy now, Lis. She's successful. She reached her dream,

Even without you.

Lisa clench her fist, she looks happy outside but in reality, she's so shattered and wreck inside.

Since the day Jennie left her, her days seems not lively anymore. Like she's doing anything without any purpose.

She still can't believe it. Like, everything is just a dream.

A nightmare indeed.

A nightmare that can make her heart dead, numb and torpid.

Lisa stopped walking and stare at the house infront of her, seeing lights are already off.

'Maybe she's already asleep'

Lisa drank the remaining alcohol and throw the bottle somewhere.

'I gave up everything for her, because i love her'

When the news were scattered, managements didn't accept Lisa.

Maybe because of homophobic world.

But Lisa didn't mind it, she start over again as a dance choreographer. And slowly making her name again, slowly regain her passion at dancing.

She closed her eyes, it's been two years but her heart still belongs to Jennie.

Is she feel the same?

Or, is her love was really true at the first place?

After a minute, Lisa opened her eyes and saw Jennie standing at her veranda. Eyes wide open and mouth hanging because of shock. She can read Jennie's mouth utter her name.

This is the first time Jennie saw Lisa after their break up, while Lisa always sees Jennie. She always attends Jennie's fan meetings, tours and etc. She wants to support Jennie, she wants to support her girl's passion. She still does that despite everything happened between them.

Lisa just smiled on her, with tears on her eyes. And utter the reason why Lisa still coming back at the person who left her;

"I still love you, Jen."