"Manliligaw ka ba ni Eva?"
"Dad!"
Halos mabilaukan ako dito nang dahil sa tanong ni Dad. Hindi, sa'n ka nakatira, ilang taon ka na ba, pa'no kayo nagkakakilala, but 'yon kagad ang tinanong ni Papa! Lumunok ako tinignan si Juan because at the moment, Juan's reaction is the only thing that matters!
But then, he is smiling!
Wow, hindi talaga siya kinakabahan no?
"Bakit?" Dad asked innocently. "Natural lang yun ang itatanong ko."
"Binibigla mo naman ang bata.." Mom interrupted and ngumuso ako agreeing with her.
"Fine... mamaya na lang tayo mag-usap Juan. Yung lalake sa lalake lang. Tapusin na lang muna natin ang ating pagkain" Dad told him at tumango naman si Juan. "Yes po".
Binilisan ko ang aking pagkain para makasali ako sa kung ano man ang pag-uusapan nina Dad at Juan, ngunit hindi ako nagtagumpay. Dad did not let me join them. He wants me to go up to my room.
"Dad, please, I want to join what are you guys going to talk about." I whined at my Dad pero he just shook his head for the third time.
"No. This is going to be a boys' talk." sabi niya and mas lalo akong ngumuso kasi I don't really want to leave Juan. Baka kasi ano pa ang masabi or makwento ni Dad sa kanya.
"...sige na Eva, go to your room. Mag-uusap lang kami ni Juan.." he repeated.
Tumingin ako kay Juan na na huli kong nakatingin na sa'kin. "It's okay Eva. I'll be alright. Punta ka na sa kwarto mo" he assured while giving me his sweet smile.
I gave him a worried look. Siya, magiging maayos, pero ako? Hindi ako mapapanatag knowing Dad na alam kong hindi 'to magiging madali para sa kanya after what happened before. Alam ko rin na na this time, sisiguraduhin ni Papa na hindi na talaga mauulit pa yung nangyari nung una. He really loves me too much.
Bumagsak ang balikat ko and sigh in defeat. Tinitigan ko si Dad na nagmamakaawa that please he better be good! And huwag niyang masyadong takutin si Juan. Hindi naman sa nahihibang na'ko but, baka dahil dito, dahil sa takot, Juan might back out and that basically means, I might loose him. And I don't want that to happen, no one doesn't want that to happen. Kasi, honestly, I've never like someone as Juan. My feelings for him is continuing overflowing! Hindi ko alam kung like pa ba 'to. Baka nga, mahal ko na 'tong tao 'to e. Hay.
Pumayag na'ko at umakyat na ng kwarto. And when I got in to my room, agad ko namang kinuha ang cellphone ko para i-text si Juan.
Text Message
Juan GDL
Today 8:09 pm
Hey, I might sound crazy but
kung ano man yung sasabihin
ni Daddy sa'yo, I hope hindi
magbabago feelings mo sakin :(
and please deal with my Dad.
He's really like that. Sana u
would understand him too if he's
going to being hard on u.
