Shadowing Times

Monster

Dusk
I should have known that this would happen. It always does but I never learn. I hide my past away but eventually it's revealed making me an outcast or a monster. This time was worse because I'd began to care. Stupid. So stupid.

Perhaps I shouldn't have run away but it's obvious they don't want me around. I hardly blame them- if I was better Sombra wouldn't be here now. Heck if I was better I wouldn't be such a fricking mess of a person who can only screw things up. So much for a nrw start somewere were I could get away from everything.

It's been a long time since I concidered falling back on self harm- it takes all my sences not to. It doesn't help, not in the long run. Yes. I'm a monster who ruins things and deserves it but I'll never move on if I keep doing this because of it. I sigh, staring at the moon, a few tears pricking at my eyes. I never knew he was evil, well...a part of me felt it but I was desperate. I'd lost almost everything, I was desperate for someone, anyone, who didn't see me as evil because of my magic type and broken because of everything else.

Up til now it comes back to bite me.

I wrap my arms around myself hating everything about myself. From my magic to stupid descions to my past; all it has done is made me an unlovable failiure (platonically obviously because no to soppy romantic stuff and me).

I feel tears slip down my cheeks, thoughts plauging me. I just wish there was some way for me to make up for my mistakes.

Maybe there is.

If I stop Sombra I may redeem myself a little. I may be a bit less of a monster. Plus, even if something does go wrong and I die, at least it'll no longer hurt. Besides I don't want to die- I'm just indifferent. It'll be the best way to punish me for my mistakes.

I nof to myself and pick myself up from the ground, my descion made.