You're Mine

Chapter 12: My Choice Of Path

This is risky but I have to take my chances.

And this is stupid...

But one more time...

Let me see with my own eyes that Lucas is still mine. I want to give him one more chance to prove to me that he really didn't want to cheat on me. That he did not choose Silvia over me just to get away from all of this madness.

The feeling inside me is kicking me back and make a step back and think. This voice inside my head is telling me that this is going to be a bad idea. The idea is stupid but yes call me everything hurtful. But I still couldn't leave without seeing him and know his reasons. If these are all jokes and we are being played around by my Dad again then I am ready to hide with him forever. I am not going back to my family because he is the one.

We still start a family together. We will leave everything around us.

But life will never be easy like that. I couldn't let fate run in my palm and how everything must end.

Life is not a fairytale.

Reality sucks and it is a big slap in the face. That day, I got out of the hotel without grabbing any attention from everyone. But thank God for this bittersweet escape. I walk out of the hotel with my head down and calmly called a cab to drive to the station where I will ride a train on the way to Gaffan. It is a long ride so I assume that I might arrive there it's already midnight.

Once I sat my ass down in the train, I looked up to the sunset and something poured inside. Orange and dull sky. No birds flying around and so blank to watch. I always lived sunset and these kinds of scenery. These are the best thing to pain down because they can be expressed in so many colors and symbols. I turned my back to painting and arts when I married Lucas.

Come to think of it, I lost so many part of my life that I loved when I chose him. I lost my chance to be a famous painter, I forgot my love for arts, and I even gave up my life for him. I sacrificed so much for the sake of this so called love with the this man. Yes, I never regretted it. Never in this life that I will regret meeting a Lucas Salvador. The man of my life. Meeting him gave me a new colour. Relating it to a painting, he was my easel. The one who always have my back and the one who can lift me up.

But what else can I do?

I am just a woman who fell deeply for him. Someone who is ready to sacrifice everything for the sake of love.

And thag love brought me down.

He is my sunset.

Once there but will soon leave at the end of the day...at the end of everything.

But here I am, walking back to him.

This mad love.

The whole train ride was long because I didn't slept a wink. My heart is pounding too wild to even relax. I got down from the train station and walked my way towards Logan's house.

I'm assuming that Lucas is still here though because where else would he go?

At Silvia's? Running back to her sugar mommy again?

I was walking quietly in the streets of Gaffan. Quiet and dark but I do not care. I not plan to staying long but let fate take on from there.

But I was just a few meters away from Logan's, my eyes can finally reach it when I noticed a white car parked in front.

That is surely not Logan's...and obviously not from Lucas too.

Shit. I am just ending up to one person.