You're Mine

Chapter 14: Painful And Bleeding Wounds

Rose Kennedy once stated that 'It has been said that time heals all wounds. I don't agree. The wounds remain. Time - the mind, protecting its sanity - covers them with some scar tissue and the pain lessens, but it is never gone'

Passing through the old pages of my life, I recalled those decisions that I made. Either they are mature or not, the choices I made will always remain as a memory. A very painful memory but I learned how to live with that pain. It will never disappear, that's a reality that sucks and hard to swallow.

Lucas Saavedra broke my heart but I know how to grow more mature after that. How childish I am to choose him over my dreams was one of the foolish decisions I made. I never achieve anything if I continue the life that I had with him.

As a young and immature woman who thinks life is a fairytale, I thought love is the only thing that matters in the world so I can be happy. But I was wrong, the reality slapped me so I could open my eyes and see the harshness of the world. Love will never be enough in order to be happy.

But knowledge and awareness.

With these two, you will always be ahead of others before they can even hurt you.

But now, I found my light and escape the darkness.

I thought I can never escape that darkness but through the years of following the path that I must take, I was able to pass through everything. It gave me a light so I can walk again and let reality have its own evilness around me. But nothing can bring me down, this time. This is the real game and I will always be using my head first before my heart.

"Art is a wound turned into light." I speak during my lecture. "In the form of artistic expressions, art therapy not only helps to bring out traumatic experiences and emotions that are otherwise extremely difficult to express but it also helps the survivors to process and cope with such experiences in a non-threatening manner. And above all, the process of art-making itself serves as a positive, healing experience and reshapes the brain to start experiencing joy, again."

I crossed my arms and looked directly to my students. Each of them are listing to me intently and some eyes are full of wonder. They placed their notebook down and forgot to write some notes during my talk. These kids need to know as well the truth about reality and I've been discussing it clear to all of them.

For the past seven years, I became successful in my field. My love for arts is the one that healed me for the pain and I was able to express them all through my paintings. All of them, out of my chest.

Being a successful artist and a university lecturer, I was able to encourage more youngsters to embrace the idea of art and the benefits of it. How helpful it is to a person who doesn't like or who doesn't have anyone to share her feelings.

"So, for next week, I want all of you to express yourself through art. I will give you an activity where you can just draw or pain anything you want. Let all those heavy tons inside you be lifted and throw them on a paper." I smiled at them before walking back behind my desk." And that would be all. Class dismiss." I told them and they all snapped back and fixed their things.

I fixed my things as well and said goodbye to my students.

I have been teaching at the university every Saturday mornings. Around eighty students registered to my class in order to listen to my lecture and I've been doing this for almost a year now.

It is actually exciting to teach and inspire more artists in the making. All of them have a potential to be a great artist and I am here, to enhance them more.