Y/N P.O.V
Finally!! It's Friday! I can't wait for the weekend to be honest. It's been a long week without yoongi and I hanging out. I also would love to invite taehyung as well but he told me that his mother would kill him if I did, what a bummer..
The outfit for today is a mustard-yellow long sleeve crop top along with tight dark jeans and a pair of white Jordans.
We are now walking to school silently.
Ahh..Did you know that walking to school with yoongi is the second most boring thing ever after school? He's usually grumpy and the silent type when it comes to waking up early, but it's okay, he returns back to his savage self after awhile.
"Yoongi.." I spoke. "Can we hangout this weekend? We haven't went out since like.. forever" I tried sounding like im pouting. "Can't do today, I'll be Staying at school late to finish my song" he simply answered. "Why school though?"
"For Internet connection. And I'm not gonna be wasting my precious cellular data on a song" he explained making me whine even more.
Ahhh...I really wanted a good weekend.
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Ahh... The rooftop, my now favourite place ever.
"Soo.. yoongi, why did you bring your laptop again?" Taehyung asked pointing at it. Yoongi explained the song thing to taehyung . Taehyung seemed like he didn't understand shit but just nodded anyway.
wait. NATURE CALLS. "guys, I'm going to the bathroom" I said before storming off.
TAEHYUNG P.O.V
*Sigh* y/n is not here.... Yoongi is focused on the laptop... I'm so bored!! "Taehyung.." yoongi finally spoke "do you mind if I start rapping?" Hmm... Wait, does he rap?
"Sure.. I don't mind" I just kept questions to myself for now. "Okay then.. first mixtape: THE LAST" wow.. ironic. He placed on a headset and the beat started, he then took a deep breath before....
"Behind every idol rapper who succeds
There's a weak self standing, it's a little dangerous
I fall sometimes again into depression and compulsion
hell no, anyway I dont even know if that's te real me
damn huh reality's separation
The conflict I've mentioned, it hurts your head
It was around 18 when my social phobia began
Yeah, that's right around that time my mental state became polluted
Sometimes I'm afraid of myself, thanks to my self-hatred
And the depression that came to play again
Min Yoongi is already dead (I killed him)
It's been a long time since my everyday life became killing my passions and comparing myself with others
My parents came up the first time I went to the psychiatrist
They got counseling with me, they said they hardly knew me
I don't even know my own self, so who can know me?
Friends? no,you? whoever it is, they don't know me
The doctor asked me
I said unhesitatingly that I'd been like that before
A world said like habit, oh, I don't give a shit, i don't give a fuq
Those words are all words I use to hide my weak self
That time I want to erase, that's right, the memories i want to erase of that day I had that concert
I was afraid pf people, so I hid in the bathroom and stared at myself
At that time I , at that time I
I thought I could compensate for success
But here's the thing, but here's the thing
As time passes by, it feels like I'm becoming a monster
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Fanfiction"hey y/n.." he said still not looking at me. I turned my face up to him for him to say "you told me 'let go of the past' but... It's hard so.. I'm thinking about letting go of the future instead." no.... No... "NO!!!!" I screamed at the top of my l...
