-I seriously don't understand how you can be so shameless - the girl attacked immediately
-Pardon?
- Maybe Portia has been nice to you I know she's been playing the nice ex since we all work together but I don't plan on doing it, I don't like you because my friends were happy together until you showed up!
- What are you talking about? - I said stunned
- Oh come on - she said placing one of her hands on her waist - Portia and Rami were perfectly fine until Bohemian Rhapsody arrived and you with that project
What the hell was she talking about?
And why I felt this need to excuse myself and give explanations about it
-Carly look.... - I started talking but she was defensive - Listen to me please
She gave a sigh and looked towards the ceiling as if seeking divine patience
- Go ahead - she said granting me my right to replicate
-I seriously don't know what you're talking about, I was hired for my role in the movie just in the middle the rehearsals of the LiveAid started almost before the shootings started. And Rami and I started officially dating after almost two months, and believe me I met Portia before that - I finished
- Oh .... – her face contracted in confusion - I thought ... Is that Portia told me that....
-What? - I said now confused, seriously did not understand what was happening or what Carly was referring to
-Look I'll tell you what I know
- Okay - I crossed my arms
- Rami got the role while filming the third season of our series
- I know....
- Portia and he were dating for a while by then ... But Rami started to grow apart, he was busy all the time
-He had to travel constantly to London for his preparation for the role - I guessed
- Yes ... And just before he started rehearsing he and Portia decided to break up and wait to see what happened. Until they officially ended when she visited her sister in London and decided to don't get back
OH MY GOD
-That's when I met her - I whispered in a low voice
Shit, that meant that when Rami and I met, he and Portia were not officially over?
- I'm sorry what I said before - Carly's voice brought me back to reality - You look guiltless, for a second I really thought you had gotten into their relationship on purpose...
-Don't worry you were just being a good friend with Portia - I said clearing my throat
-I'm sorry - Carly's voice sounded honest
-Don't worry - I shrugged - But I think it's Rami who has to give a couple of explanations
-Oh no. I didn't want to cause anything bad between you - Carly jumped
-Is not that.... It is just that.... He did mention Portia but I never thought that their relationship would have been so recent when I met him. And she has never mentioned anything ...
-Yes, I saw you both interacting on twitter a couple of months ago
-Why did she never say anything?
-I dont know, she's very kind ... But she's thinking about leaving the show
-What?! - my voice came out breathless - She can't!! why?
Carly bit her lips in a gesture of regret
-Please be honest with me - I begged.
I was discovering a totally new perspective here
- Portia and I are very close during the shootings ... she was very excited about Rami, you know ... Thinking about the future - I felt a lump in my throat - I'm not sure about Rami, he has always been more focused on his work than Portia, that does not mean he didn't cared for her but I'm not sure he was that in love. But Portia was very in love. So when she and Rami grow apart and then they broke up ... that devastated her a bit. She is with her ex-boyfriend now, but I think she has not got over Rami
Jeez! So what they said in the media was true ... I had broken Portia and Rami's relationship, according to what Carly had just said, I had met Rami and started something with him when he just broke up with her and they weren't officially over. Oh God, I had broken a relationship, that made me want to throw up
-I'm sorry, Lucy. You're pale - Carly ran her hands through my arms trying to give me some warmth - Do you feel good?
I cleared my throat and watched my face in the bathroom mirror, I really looked like a ghost
-It's nothing, should we go back to the table? - I tried a smile
-I'm sorry again - she apologized one more time - Please, I don't want to cause problems between you and Rami. He looks really happy with you, he's all smiles. It was my mistake to assume that you were a bitch and that you did not care about Portia but I see that it is not true
-it's all right, Carly - I said with a weak smile - People think bad things about me all the time
-I'm sorry and thanks - and before I could react we gave each other a short hug to leave. Where we walk back to the table
-You're good? - Rami's hand slid down mine as I sat down next to him.
Had I really broken the relationship between Rami and Portia? Why Rami had not talked to me about it
-I don't feel well
-You want us to go?
-What? Don't! - I said - I think you should enjoy a little more. I'll wait at home - I stood up
-No, Lucy. I can go with you - he followed me
-It's all right, stay
I really need to think before addressing this issue with you
-All right - he accepted with a small pout
I said goodbye to everyone
-I see you in an hour - Rami accompanied me to the uber
- No hurry - I smiled
Rami leaned forward with the clear intention of kissing me but I back off.
If Portia had been in love at least half of what I was with Rami then my heart ached for her. And what if I was the "new Portia"? And what if there were more important things for Rami than our relationship? And what if he was moving away from me at some point?
- Did you break up with Portia because of me?
