I watched as the nurse pinched a vein in my arm and how blood slowly flowed trying to ignore the violent pounding of my heart in my chest
We will be fine....
I repeated in my mind as a mantra like for millions of time
- I will take this sample, Dr. Bailey will be with you in a second - the nurse smiled sweetly and I tried to smile back but I could not, this pain in my chest was stronger than the pain that crossed the lower part of my abdomen and that crossed to my back.
I clenched my teeth hard trying to withstand that feeling while the nurse came out of my small cubicle in the emergency room closing the curtain.
Little E ... my eyes filled with tears, if something happened to my little ... I ...
- Lu!
- Rami! - I screamed watching as he entered wearing his gala outfit- Brenda told me, are you alright? What's going on? - Rami held my face in his hands
- I don't know, I just ... little E. I don't know what's going on, it hurts. I'm scared - I spoke nonsense in the middle of sobs
- Shh .... everything will be fine, our little one is fine - he caught me in his arms and I began to cry intensely on his chest ruining the shirt of his suit
- Lucy, Rami - the soft voice of Dr. Bailey startled me - I read the report from the emergency doctor who talked to you a couple of minutes ago. I must ask, are you bleeding?
I shook my head sipping through my nose
We'll be fine....
- That's good. Well, let's do an ultrasound and we'll know what's going on. It's okay? - The doctor approached the ultrasound monitor and I felt the terror go through me
- And what if ... It's just that hurts, what could be happening?
- Lucy, calm down. Let's see how little E is - the good doctor calmed me down and I could only nod.
Rami settled on my side as I put my dress up and the doctor placed a towel on my legs and applied a generous amount of gel on my belly. I gave Rami a tearful look, conveying all my fear
- Everything will be fine my love - he whispered but I knew him, I could see the same fear in his eyes. Those eyes that only made me think of the beautiful baby girl of my dreams, that baby with her father's eye
- Let's see ... - the doctor placed the probe on my skin focusing on the screen
Rami took one of my hands guiding her to his lips leaving a sweet kiss. I closed my eyes terrified while waiting ...
... And waiting
Why did it take so long?
I squeezed Rami's hand in mine and suddenly the most beautiful sound filled our little space. A sob came out of my lips, it was a heartbeat!
- There is our little E - the doctor said in a firm tone - the measurements are fine, you are about to turn 15 weeks. There is no bleeding ...
- Then why does it hurt?! - Rami said worried without letting go of my hand
- I have to do a pelvic examination but I think it is a threatened miscarriage, it usually happens especially in first time moms but most babies make it just fine - she explained as she continued taking measures of my little one.
My little was fine!
Rami continued to attack the good doctor with questions but I did not listen, I was abstracted watching the silhouette of my little E on the monitor.
