[complete] the swan dive | the first diary - katsudeku

day fifteen

dear diary,

i went to practice my swan dive at the pool again.
the diving board wasn't too busy.
it was better than nothing.
when i did my second swan dive,
i got into position.
hands flat,
body straight,
chest not too puffed, back not too pulled back.
but it still wasn't enough.
i still failed to elegantly dive
like a swan into a pond.
tell me,
is this what you really wanted?
for me to die,
for me to say goodbye?