playing with cards • bakugou x reader

VIII

YOUR POV

Running.

I don't think I ever ran this fast before. But what was I running from? This warm yet painful feeling inside of me won't leave.

 I want it gone. I hate it, yet I always seem to crave it more and more each day.

 I hate this.

 Why does this always happen? A sudden image flashed in my head, an image of Bakugou. Still running, I tripped on a rock. Sliding on the concrete, I held my leg as it started to bleed. Standing up trying to ignore the pain I walked- limped, the rest of the way to the hideout.

I rushed into my room slamming the door shut. I paced back and forth, from wall to wall holding my head, rubbing my temples trying to get my headache to go away.

 I needed to calm down.

I felt someone hover over me, looking up I saw the same crimson eyes that are just so memorizing. Bakugou lifted my chin up facing him better.

"My explosion didn't do much. You'll be fine."

NO NO NO!

Why can't Bakugou get out of my head?

 Calm, (Y/N). . .

He looked at me, mouth full of food. He had such a soft expression on his face. His eyes looking so innocent, and round cheeks.

"GET! OUT!" I screamed as I slammed my hand into the wall, creating a crack. I covered my mouth shocked by my own strength. 

"Did I do that?"

 I blinked once is complete awe. I sighed closing my eyes, letting my forehead make contact with my bedroom wall. Repeatedly slamming it harder and harder each time. After a while, I felt blood come from a cut on my head. I lifted my hand and clogged the injury.

I needed answers and I needed them now.

 I sat down on my bed. Feeling uncomfortable, I took my playing cards out of my pocket. I had a sudden urge to look through the pile, at each card specifically. After a few seconds of scanning the deck my eyes widen, I dropped my cards and covered my mouth in shock. 

I lost one of my cards.

 It may not seem like a big deal but I was with a hero today. Someone who knows of a certain villain who fights with cards.

This day has been so stressful.

I summoned my Arcana cards. They were face down. When I summon the cards, usually the one on the top has something to say to me. I flipped the specially designed card and couldn't help but roll my eyes, unsummoning the rest. I cleared my throat throwing the Arcana into the air.

"I call upon The Lovers! Grant us your powers of knowledge and connection between others! Be the light we need in the dark!"

I watched as two snakes that were tied together slither out of the card.

They were beautiful. 

Shiny scales and beautiful colours that compliment each other so well. They let out a small hiss in unison. "You called master?" I sighed pushing a piece of hair behind my ear. "More like you called for me. You have something to tell me, don't you?" The two snakes looked at each other, with admiration in their eyes.

It made me sick.

"In fact, we did Master. We saw you in distress with your feelings, and we think we can be of help." 

I couldn't help but laugh. Help? With my feelings? Last time I checked I had no feelings. Honestly, I don't even think I have a soul at this point. 

"You must be getting old, I don't have any issues with denial." The female snake had a sad expression. "We never said anything about denial Master." My eyes widen. 

Why did I say denial? I'm not in denial. Okay, I just denied me being in denial but I am not in denial!

 "Master, have you been feeling all warm inside, yet feeling like you're being stabbed?" I hesitated at first but nodded at their question. The two snakes gave a soft smile. They both moved beside me warping around me, almost like a hug. It felt nice. "Master, when do you feel such way?"

Once again, images and memories of Bakugou filled my head. I felt my cheeks burn up but my heart hurt. The Lover must have noticed this because I heard them chuckle.

"Your heart seems occupied. But your mind is at a battle with your heart." The male snake hissed. 

"I don't understand-"

"Master, you're in love."

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Love . . . 

God, I hate those snakes. 

They can't just show up and say 'oh you're in love haha' 

I mentally groaned. Right now I'm in my villain costume out on the streets. Kurogiri said Shigaraki finally had something for me to do.  At least I'm finally of some use to that traumatic child. 

It was about 12 in the morning. Midnight was such a beautiful time. But I hate it now thanks to the Pro Hero Midnight. She ruined that word for me. 

Anyways, my mission here is to kill this one guy who accidentally saw Shigaraki through our clubs window. So, in other words, someone completely innocent. I sighed, why was I feeling so horrible about this mission? Was it because I have feelings for a stupid hero? And killing is a bad thing? Who knows. 

I finally see the man walking home with bags in his hands. He looked tired. I jumped from the roof I was hiding from and dropped right in front of him. He let out a shriek and stumbled back, falling on his back, dropping the items he was holding. I went into my pocket and was about to pull out my card when the man started crying. 

"Please! Please don't kill me! I have so much to live for!" 

I rolled my eyes. I've heard this monologue enough times already and I was not about to hear it again. 

"Kids!" 

I looked at him confused. Why the hell did he just scream kids?

He cleared his throat, shaking. "I-I have kids! Please! I'm a single dad! I can't just leave my little girls in this world!" He was now crying rubbing his hands together while on his knees as if begging for mercy. 

Something inside me was stopping me. A single dad, taking care of his kids. 

I sighed in defeat.  Why am I becoming such a softy? 

"You won't die. But I can't have you awake either."   

I quickly punched the guy making him unconscious, I then took out my card and cut a fine line on his back, not too deep. I heard a scream come from behind me. Someone was watching. 

Good. 

They can call for help. 

I quickly ran back to my 'home'. 

Damn you Bakugou and your hero ways. 

Word Count: 1140

Published: Saturday, June 22, 2019

Awe, (Y/N) is turning soft :)