I Got You ~ C.B

TWENTY-TWO

The trip today is just as much about photos as it is rides and food. Mum seems to have commandeered Colby's camera, snapping photos of us candidly. Maisie in some. They're actually really cute. For once she understands how to take good photos. I guess it's hard to not take good ones on that camera. We start with It's a Small World, Pirates of the Caribbean, Storybook Canal, Finding Nemo Submarine, check out Chip and Dale's treehouse, Haunted Mansion, Jungle Cruise, Minnie's House, Radiator Springs Racers, Splash Mountain, ToyStory Midway Mania. We eat Turkey Legs and Pineapple Dole Whip and Mickey Pretzels. Cinnamon churros, beignets, candy apples. Spreading it all out through the day as to avoid puking on the rides. I have never seen Maisie on this much of a sugar high, maybe it's because it's paired with so much excitement. Some honourable mentions of mum's photography are one of me carrying Maisie on my hip down Pixar Pier, many meetings with various characters, Colby piggybacking me in front of the Buzz Lightyear wing painting, Maisie and I in the teacup ride, eating the foods- Colby and I sharing a candy apple. She got a cute one of us in front of the Ferris wheel, Colby lifting me with my legs around his waist and hands in his hair, our foreheads rested against each other's as we smile at each other. Some good ones of me are taken to- on the gas pumps outside Flo's Cafe, on the swings turning around to face the camera with my hair whipping everywhere, sitting on the curb of a street wearing my Mickey ears, hugging characters, exploring character houses. I've also taken up vlogging it. I thought Vlogging my first Disney experience would be good content. I make sure never to capture Sadie though. I forget she's here most of the time. You know something is wrong with someone if not even the happiest place on Earth could get them smiling. She only smiles for photos. I don't know how I'm going to survive four more days of this. I could just put them up in a hotel for that time, let them do their own thing, give Diana back the house. Because it isn't working how it is now. As it gets on in the night, we make our way to the firework display. But we're stopped on the way- a girl yelling
"No way! Oh my gosh hi!"
She runs up to us, and we stop, my family stopping a little ahead to watch yet another encounter today. She continues when she's close to us
"Colby and Alaska- Rain!"
I offer her a smile
"That's us! What's your name sweetheart?"
She looks probably fourteen, and she shakily replies
"Cassie."
She looks like teenage Moana, I decide to tell her this being in Disneyland. After Colby greets, accepting a hug from her
"Nice to meet you Cassie. You enjoying Disney?"
She nods rapidly and hugs me, I tell her mid hug
"You look like teenage Moana."
She laughs, smiling at me
"Thank you!"
I ask her
"Wanna get pictures?"
I've discovered that they sometimes don't know how to ask for pictures, or feel weird doing it, so I tend to offer most of the time. She hands her phone to her mum, and we move either side off her, hugging her as the photo is taken. She turns back to us, voice shaky with Adrenalin
"Thank you so much."
Colby waves it off
"Don't mention it."
She turns to walk away, as do we, only to hear her call a second later
"Wait!"
We do, pausing again and turning to her
"Yeah Cas?"
I ask as she comes back up to us, voice lower as she questions
"You guys are dating, right? Like I know you guys say you're just best friends but you see each other everyday and are always posting photos of each other and there's just a whole lot of talk about it online so I'm really curious and I know Colby's fans are weird when it comes to him and girls so you may not want to say anything because of that but you don't have to say anything, but I wouldn't tell anyone if you did."
I laugh, she's so cute. I don't think she took a breath that whole time. I don't know how to respond though, I haven't had an experience like this since being with Colby. Nobody has outwardly asked us I don't think- at least not for a few months. And I'm kind of scared to admit it. We decided we wouldn't go public as to avoid his fans coming to kill me like they do to most chicks he's seen with. He takes the lead, saying what we agreed to
"Just best friends."
I add, just like we used to when asked this question
"I met Colby like, four years ago before I even started YouTube. He was my first friend in the industry and actually convinced me to start in the first place."
She accepts this
"Oh- okay. I was going to say though, if you were, I really ship it."
I giggle, hugging her again
"Awah, you sweetie. Thank you anyway."
When we part again, I can't help but keep going over that situation again and again. Unlike last time we replied with that, it doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel satisfying that we pulled one over on them again. It feels wrong. Is it always going to be like that? Pretending we aren't what we are. I don't know if I want to keep it a secret anymore. I want to post these adorable photos of us, I want to post cute videos of him on Snapchat. I want to show him off. But then again- do I want to be hunted down and murdered by Colby's fan base? Besides, he doesn't seem to have a problem with it. Probably because he's used to it. You'd think I would be too by now. I shake it off, I can't think about this right now. I need to focus on enjoying the last of my first Disney experience. With my family. With Colby, my boyfriend, my dream boy, the guy I love with my whole heart. Public relationship or not.