The Devil As A Husband (Malexmale)

chapter 23

I love this song, this my best song from
Sam Smith *how do you sleep when you
Lie to me*

It driving me nuts

McCall POV...

It been three month and 14days
Since I saw the love of my life
I missed him, I wasn't going
To work any more, though
Random call came through
My phone but I busied it all
I didn't care I told smith my
Very close friend a PA to me
At work to handle thing out for
Me I wasn't going to show up
At work any time soon

Right now I handled business
At home, major once which
Needed my drastic attention
I was sick, I was pale, I was dying
He didn't call me, he never did
Sometimes I feel like if I was forgotten
Forgotten by him, he was the only
Family I had left in this damn stupid
World of mine

Sometimes I feel he has moved on
Not thinking or caring to look back
He was living a carefree live without
Me, without him I was useless, I
Couldn't think straight at time
Most time I even skip meals
I misses his food, I don't sleep
I my room, rather I go to his
Room just to be felt loved
To feel his scent, to feel his presence
I missed his scent, it was breath taking.

His father called me asking me a
Question he knew well I have been
Dying to do

That afternoon which was a day before
He called asking me if I still wanna see
His son again

What kinda of question was that
The Williams are weird I swear they are
Was he waiting for me to die before he asked
I was already dead if you asked me

When he said that over the phone
Apart of me got frozen, was I ready
To face the music, was I ready to face him
What will I tell him, how will I say I regretted
All I did to him, will he even believe me
What would be his reaction when he sees me
What will be his thought when he see me
Will he see me as gross because that what I'm
I'm such an idiot, I lost him just because of
A random caller that said something stupid
Will he ever let me back into his life, will he allow
Me rim him again,  or even kiss him
Will he allow me look into his green eyes that
Glitters at night. He was a beauty, he was divine
He was perfect, no he was above perfect

All this question came rushing down
My head like a bullet the plane was tomorrow
Morning I should be leaving with his dad
Since he wasn't living in his grandparents
House I might as well crash there
U may so that I can sneak Into his
Room then and now.

His grandparents where over with the
Fight they have forgiven me but they
Haven't forgotten what I made their
Poor son go through..

Same as his dad he was OK with it
His mum gave in just because of her
Husband endless talking to her

Well she OK with it, I never even care
All I wanted was his approval
Jessy approval he was the one I
Hurt not them, he was the one
I endlessly killed with my
Trusting issues.

XX

I was waiting for Jessy father at the
Airport endlessly waiting
I came petty early, I took out the phone
Plunged in my earpiece too listen to
Some good GAM not listening to
People talking on there daily businesses

I felt a hand tapped  me, I looked back to see
Mr William, Jessy father
"Well Son it about time you get to see you
Lover" I corrected him no his my husband,
My life partner, my pride, my joy

"Yeah yeah what ever" he said it out
Rolling his eyes like a teenager
I thought Rolling of the eyes was
For teens not a full grown man that
Has a son almost my age.