Saturday evening. I spend this whole day sulking. I don't think I got up once. Stayed in bed, engulfed in my covers with chips and juice on my bedside table. This week has been the absolute worst. Maddie reminded me everyday how I wasn't good enough for Jonah and I started to believe her. I started to push my only friends away and at this point I wasn't even sure if I wanted to see Jonah.
I haven't really seen my brother or my dad all week. When we did, it would just be a short 'hi' as I passed through the kitchen.
It's been a week since Jonah. That means two things. A week since we discovered I might be pregnant and a week since he left.
I don't know when he's going to turn up and I don't want to either.
It's not really a 'don't you miss him' question. It's really the fact that I can't face him after this week feeling so powerless and bad for him.
I've never felt this way about anyone. Never in my entire life did a guy make me laugh when he did, make me smile when he did, or make me feel like a million dollars on my worst days.
It's the simple 'wanna cuddle' texts that make my day or when he shows up to my house unannounced with his hoodies and cookies his mom made.
My favorite memories from the past six months with him ooo into my head and I can't help but smile.
"Nat someone is at the door for you!" I hear my dad call from downstairs. I immediately hop off my bed and run towards the door knowing exactly who it is.
"Hey." He smiles and laughs as I latch onto him.
"Hi." I answer breathlessly and pull away. He flashes me a breathtaking smile which makes my which makes my stomach erupt with butterflies.
"These are for you." He says as he hands me a box of cookies, fresh from the oven.
"Thank you." I say as I take the box from him. I grab his hand and pull him behind me into my room.
"I missed you today." He mumbles as he wraps his arms around my waist.
"It's your stupid football practice." I say and roll my eyes as he places a gentle kiss on my neck.
"I know." He sighs. "What do you want to do?" He asks as he pulls away and sits on my bed.
"Not sure you can pick." I say back as Jonah grabs my waist and pulls me towards him. I straddle his legs and kiss his forehead.
"Thank you." He says with a small chuckle.
"You're welcome." I smile.
But good always comes with bad. Yeah, me and Jonah had several fights about dumb things. But we always came back from them.
Now that I think of it, our fights never last more than 24 hours.
"Who's Adrien?" Jonah asks from my bed as he fiddles in my phone.
"Some guy in my class, were doing a project together." I answer from my closet. "Why?"
"Because he keeps messaging you." Jonah says with a bit of anger laced in his voice.
"So?" I asked confused. Jonah's fist clenches and unclenches before he speaks.
"Stop talking to him." He says in the calmest manner.
"Jo-" I start but he cuts me off.
"I don't give flying fuck if its about a project. Stop. Talking. To. Him." He says leaving no room for discussion. He abruptly gets up and heads for the door.
"So I'm not allowed to have friends who are boys?" I asked taken aback.
"Correct." He says as he slams the door to my room and leaves.
Several break downs and hours later I hear my bedroom door open.
"Corbyn get out." I say in a raspy voice which is just a result of me crying because I fought with Jonah. I hear the door close and I sigh and sniffle.
"Have you been crying?" Jonah's voice startles me.
"Go away." I mumble and shuffle deeper into the blankets.
"I'm sorry." He says as he sits beside me on the bed. I don't answer I just roll my eyes and remember he can't see me. I feel his hand on my shoulder as he starts to shake me. "Babe." He sighs. "I'm sorry I shouldn't control your life or who you can or can't be friends with." He pauses. "I'm just scared your going to change your mind about how you feel towards me or something." He admits and I sniffle. He's the absolute cutest.
"Stop being so insecure." I say as I pop my head out of the covers. "I told you no one could ever replace you."
"I know it's just... It's stupid. I'm sorry." He says and lays down beside me. "Sorry I made you cry." He says before lightly kissing my nose. "I hate seeing you cry." He admits. "We can go out for ice-cream." He says as he pulls me up to my feet.
"I love you." I say as I wrap my arms around his neck.
"I love you more." He whispers into my hair.
Maybe I want him to come back. I do miss him. I just don't know if I'm ready to confront him about this whole situation. Because right now, it's not real but after we have a serious discussion, that makes it real.
Maybe it's good that I'm growing up, just not this fast. I don't know if I'm ready.
I check my phone to see the time and it is 4 in the morning. And everyone asks why I look like I haven't slept in weeks. I'm about to put down my phone but it buzzes in my hand. I bring it up to my face and almost drop my phone.
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A/N ; hi so i keep getting 'update soon' messages so here next one will probably be here tomorrow x !! by the way.. i started my ib lessons so it's why i'm hella like behind BECAUSE of this dummy diploma. hehehehe love u !💓😗
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The Bad Boy Next Door
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