The Death of Dreams (Frankiana)

Chapter 22

Diana's POV

After namin mag-shower ay hinanap na namin agad yung sinasabi nilang cassette tape. At nakita na nga namin ito,medyo maalikabok pa nga eh tapos may kasama pang isang parang handmade booklet na binasa ko.

"Sa tingin mo, saan kaya patungkol ang kanta?. I bet it's about lola or the Peacemaker." Sabi niya.

"Literally parang yun yung story ng song. Here oh, he wrote: The story of the song is about falling for someone who is a terrible person. You don't just love people just because they're beautiful, smart and kind. That's not true love, that's purely admiration. I want the type of love that hurts me bad by the truth than make me smile by the things that are sugar coated. You don't love people because they have more tolerable behaviors, you love them because of their honesty for showing you their darkest sides. Which makes sense because the title is Honest Love."

"I love that part na sinabi nya na I love the type of love that hurts me bad by the truth--"

"I know right. Grabe napakaromantic pala ng lolo mo."

"Basahin mo pa kung san talaga about, mamaya nyan mainlove ka sa lolo ko mahirap na haha."

"Sira haha. Sige na, eto na."

[ The world tells you to look at it as a beautiful place, and you believe that, not until you see children suffering from malnutrition, people dying because of certain diseases, wars, depression and of course because of people's selfish desires, climate change, global warming and natural disasters. In a world where most people crave for wealth, power and fame, you stood there appreciating beauty of the broken. The love interest in the song represents the world itself, it has its ups and downs. Its nature is balanced with yin and yang. You understand that because you see what you need to provide than what it doesn't have, and it is love. People became indestructible and toxic that they don't realize how they're destroying everything.]

"It means na the way you perceive the world depends on where you stand and which parts of it are exposed to you.” sabi ni Franki.

"Oh yeah, tama ka dyan. He's trying to explain that the world isn't black and white, it's gray. In this place where people tries to argue

Tapos may ma definition of terms pa,

[ Characteristics of the love interest:

Dangerous smiles- manipulative
Lying eyes- insincerity
Magical butterflies- things that aren't actually there but you see and feel it ; delusional
Bleeding words- blurting out hurtful truths; insulting or degrading people.
Fireworks- short tempered; gets angry easily
Paper hearts- oversensitive

Writing this, I've realized one thing and it is: Our imperfections made the world a better place to live in.

If all of us are warriors, there would be war. If everyone is a teacher, we will not learn new things. If everyone is beautiful, we would not understand the concept of its contrast. There has to be atleast one thing that is different, to make something perfect.]

Franki's room is really nice and organized, it's painted pink. Nakapatay yung lights para sa buong kwarto at tanging ang mga colored little light bulbs na nasa dingding malapit sa head board at ang lamp shade sa study table niya ang nagbibigay ilaw sa amin.

"I-play na nga natin." Sabay lagay niya dito sa radio.

At nagsimula na nga ang musical intro, it sounded like a slow dance at medyo luma na ang tono.

"Oh, that sounds interesting." Sabi niya but I just stared at her for I guess 3 seconds before coming up with anything else to say.

"May I have this dance?." Sabi ko as I offered my hand. She just smiled also staring at me,

"Dance lang ah, bawal ma-inlove." Biro pa niya as we guide ourselves into a slow dance position.

"Okay lang, boto naman si Tita Arlene satin eh haha. Sign na yun diba?. " As we slowly swayed. Akala mo ikaw lang marunong. Natahimik nalang sya, nagpipigil na ata ng kilig.

Dangerous smiles,
lying eyes, baby I'd
apologize 'cause I
didn't mean to fall
for those certain
things 'bout you.

Magical butterflies,
baby you don't even
have to try to get
them all impressed
Love you got me,
effortless.

Inikot ko siya ng isang beses and then pull her closer to me. Staring intently at her wonderful brown eyes, parang may nag-iba sa kaloob-looban ko. Isang pakiramdam na kakaiba.

It's the way you walk
and the way you talk,
and how you see the
world, how imperfect
it is but perfect for us.
It's the way you are
and the way you're not,
it's so honest like us,
'cause babe I want
honest love, I want us
like that.

"Stop it." Hampas niya sakin, tila natatawa.

"Stop what?."

"Stop staring at me like that--" she's so cute when she's blushing.

"Okay, but do me a favor."

"What is it?."

"Stop being so beautiful, ang hirap kasing wag mapatingin."

"Naku, ang dami mong alaaam." She said pinching my nose.

Bleeding words,
fireworks. Baby I was
wanting more, 'cause
I didn't mean to taste
and crave for it all.
Paper hearts,
torn apart. I was fragile,
you were hard.
To reach by my hands,
there's small
possible chance.

Silence. I found myself staring at those soft lips, I wonder how they taste like. And all of a sudden, that crazy dream of being kissed by this beautiful woman flashed in my head. Pero this time, hindi na ako napapailing dahil dun.

It's the way you walk
and the way you talk,
and how you see the
world, how imperfect
it is but perfect for us.
It's the way you are
and the way you're not,
it's so honest like us,
'cause babe I want
honest love, I want us
like that.

I pulled her even closer as I pressed our foreheads together. I could basically feel her warm breaths right now on my lips. But why am I feeling like this?

Dugdugdugdug

You made me fall
with the raw parts
of you. I've never
thought that my
heart's broke in two.
You made it possible
for me to believe,
that someone like
you actually exist.

Why does being this close to Franki feels so good? Nababaliw na ba ako? Kasi as far as I can remember, hindi naman ako nakakaramdam ng ganito when I'm around girls. What's going on.

It's the way you walk
and the way you talk,
and how you see the
world, how imperfect
it is but perfect for us.
It's the way you are
and the way you're not,
it's so honest like us,
'cause babe I want
honest love, I want us
like that.

Hindi ko na namalayang tapos na pala ang kanta and she pulled away. I still stood there confused.

"Diana, hey--are you okay?."

"Ah y-yeah."

"Alam mo, inaantok na tuloy ako dahil sa kanta. Tulog na tayo? Maaga pa tayo bukas. Sa makalawa na yung competition, konti nalang ang time natin."

Nakatingin parin ako sa kanya.

"Halika naaa haha." Sabay hila niya sakin palapit sa kama kaya lumapit nako. I swear, this would certainly be a long night for me.