Her Spirit Crying Out

farewell my old freind

Just got pulled over since the first time since i left public saftey for my plate lights being out, and the minute his lights went on i pulled over. Immediately my attitude changed i went into a heavy submissive girl state and even my voice went into my girl voice. He wanted my liseance and registration and when i gave it to him he said mam this isnt you this says richard wagner witch made me blush heavily. Then he sined his flash light on all the pills i keep in my tabacco box and said are those urs, i said yes sir and handed them to him i then exsplained i was origanally a guy but changed into a girl a year ago. He then went to his car and checked my liceanse. A couple things went threw my mind on this stop 1 i was more than proud that he had to question me cause i was all done up and looked like a girl, and he did not belive i was a guy like on my liseance 2 it was a slap in the face of sorts relising how my demeanor turned 100 % submmisive girl. when i started turning into a girl i knew it would spell the end of my public saftey carrer. i was becoming to submissive to do the work and to be a strong authority figure anymore but even after i quit the feild i always thought mabye id return one day but today showed me i no longer have what it takes to be an officer with the public saftey bureau. So well im happy im become more of a girl im a little sad to reliseing the old me vanished completely ill never be able to be a first responder agian 3 thing i was incredibly turned the fuck on, he was hot ,the authority he presented was hot, and me blushing and talking like a little school girl unintentionally was fucking hot. It was hard to sit there and conduct myself appropriately when i was so wet !!!!!! Needless to say this was the last night ill have worn my public saftey shirts and i finally said goodbye to richard
today i take the plunge. I have been standing on the edge of a cliff between my masculinity and feminty. I still dressed like a guy and didnt do my make up because last time i truly went all out at 16 i was heavily bullied and ended up reject the fact i was a girl till 21. I wont let that happen again tonight showed me i am a girl and its time i started playing the part so ill dive off the cliff and drown in the pool of femininity and one day resurface as the true girly version of my self im gonna find a way to make money to  buy a lot of female clothes that actually fit me well, im gonna start talking in my female voice, im gonna carry my self and walk like a proud girl i am, im gonna start doing my make up and shaving my whole body every day im gonna learn a bunch of cute femine hairstyle and put more effort in my hair.