Hamari Choti Sy Dunya

Mohabbat door jany na de!

My very first work on ArShi which I dared to publish again today, after months of debating🙈

Edited it in a hurry. Didn't have time to add English translations. Sorry for that!!

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"Tum meri zindagi mein aae hi kyun? Mein tumsy mila hi kyun? Na tum aati or na hi Shayam aisy harkat krta or dii apni shadi-shuda zindagi mein khush hoti. YEH SAB TMHRY WAJA SY HUA HAI. You are the biggest mistake of my life Khushi Kumari Gupta! Kash mein tumsy kabhi mila hi nhi hota."

"No! No! No. He can't say this. He can't! I know he can't. He didn't mean it. He was angry, he was hurt, he was in pain seeing di's condition! That's why-that's why he-"

Khushi couldn't complete her sentence as she broke down into tears. With a thud, she sat down on the floor by the pool. Tears were making their way out of her eyes. She was unable to control the sobs which were escaping her mouth. Covering her mouth with her hand and shutting her eyes closely, she tried to bit back the sobs which were escaping unintentionally.

"Why?? Why Arnav-ji?? Why did you say like this?? How can you-how can you say all those words? I am-I am the biggest mistake of your life?? Am I really?? You think that I am responsible for all the happenings? You think that I am responsible for Di's condition?""

She clenched her shirt over her heart, fisting it tightly as a sharp pain shot through her chest. It was unbearable, the pain, the hurt, the remorse, she was going through. It was not the words which were hurting her more...it was the person, who said those words.

"Why Devi Maiya, why?? Why is it always me?? Why you always choose me to suffer?? Why is it always me who loose her loved-ones. First my Amma and Babu-ji and now..now Arnav-ji as well. One by one, you are snatching my all reasons of living. Why???" She cried out loud looking up at the sky.

You are the biggest mistake of my life Khushi Kumari Gupta! Kash mein tumsy kbhi mila hi nhi hota...

She stood up abruptly from her place as the words rang in her ears. Wiping away those traitor tears, she made her way inside the room. Looking around she could only recall the beautiful moments which she had spent with her husband.

Husband, was he really one??

Yes!! A contracted husband for six months.

Tears flow down her cheeks once again as the realization hit her hard. Once again, she felt the same pain at the left side of her chest.

"We were never meant to be one, never, never ever! I was a fool, a big damn fool to think so. He married me to punish me because he thought of me as a bloody home-wrecker and a hold digger. He did all that for his di. In her love. I was nowhere, nowhere in his life. That time also, his dii was his priority and today the case is no different. I was never able to make a place in his heart. His opinion about me is same as the first day. I was a bloody fool to think otherwise! I was, I am and I will always be a DAMN BLOODY FOOL." Khushi shouted in the end not being able to take up the agony.