Stay By My Side

14

Sana didn't want to say goodbye, but she had to. Holidays were approaching and their schedules were cleared to visit families. Both of them were near tears when they really had to say goodbye.

"Y/N... You can talk to her everyday." Joo-Hyun groaned while grabbing her sister's arm and tugging it towards the car.

"No." Y/N pouted. She gave Sana one last hug goodbye and followed her sister. Sana stood there, she desperately wanted to kiss her, but they were in public and she didn't know if Y/N had told her sister about them yet.

Things were going to be rough for a while. She knew it in her gut.

As Y/N sat next to her sister in the car, she felt more calm. She was in good company of someone who wasn't going to judge her. At least not too harshly.

"Joo... I started dating someone." Y/N finally broke the silence as her sister drove.

"Oh?" She smiled. "When?" She asked.

"Not too long ago. Almost a week now." She shrugged. "No one knows."

"Except me now." She chuckled. "Will I get to meet them?" She asked. Y/N looked out the window, staring at the cars that passed them by. "Y/N?" Joo-Hyun frowned.

"No. Not formally." She finally answered. "I want to see where it goes first." She sighed.

"Do you not see it working out?" She frowned at her younger sister.

"I don't know what I see. But I've been crushing on them for years. And now that I'm dating them... It feels wrong." Y/N frowned. "Have you ever had that feeling?"

"I've barely dated... But I know the feeling well. It's probably because you have to hide it." She sighed. Y/N nodded slowly, not looking back at her sister. Her phone vibrated with a message. She clicked on it, seeing a picture of pouty Sana.

Sana: i miss you already.

Y/N smiled at the photo, saving it onto her phone.

Sana sat at the dorm, her flight home was tomorrow and she couldn't wait. She just wished Y/N was with her.

"So you did it." Momo chuckled Sana looked up from her bed, seeing her best friend leaning on the door frame of the bedroom.

"I did." Sana sighed. "It's stupid to feel so lonely right now?" She smirked at Momo.

"You both have had feelings for each other forever." She rolled her eyes as she flopped herself onto Sana's bed.

"When are you going to confess your love?" Sana snickered.

"Never. I don't love anyone except jokbal." She laughed. She smiled as she went through her photos, looking at everyone who she had taken photos with. The ones that made her smile the most were of course Y/N. "God its disgusting." Momo groaned. 

"You'll be this way one day." Sana laughed. 

"What are you going to do when we perform What Is Love on stage?" She smirked. Sana blinked a few times, letting out a small giggle. The entire song was about wanting to know what love felt like. 

"I don't think it's love right now. Just extreme like." Sana answered truthfully. Momo nodded, feeling the energy she was putting out. "I don't want to rush anything with her. She's so..." Sana struggled for the right words. 

"She's not even your partner for that song." Momo realized as she stared at the ceiling. Sana looked down at her and laughed. "She's mine." Momo smiled. 

"I know. Maybe we could switch." Sana smirked. 

"No. She's good at La La Land." Momo pointed. Sana rolled her eyes and looked back at her phone. A little reminder popping up, telling her to pack her bag. Her eyes landed on her half empty suitcase next to her bed. 

"I should finish packing." Sana sighed. "My flight leaves early tomorrow." She groaned. "When is yours?" She asked. Momo looked at her phone, checking her calendar. 

"Nine." She mumbled. "But it's direct into Osaka and then like an hour drive out." She frowned. "You're so lucky." She laughed. Sana shrugged her shoulders and slid off the bed onto the floor to sort out her belongings. 

"Are you done packing?" She asked. 

"I don't bring anything when I visit." Momo muttered. "Just a few changes of clothes." She shrugged. "Which all fit into a small bag." She added. 

"You don't even bring a toothbrush?" Sana frowned. 

"Why? I have one there." She laughed. Sana nodded, knowing that a lot of her belongings were still at home. Which made packing a whole lot easier. 

Y/N sat with her sister on the roof of their family home, staring at the night sky. Something you could never do in Seoul. They lived a little outside of a city, so the night sky was clear for them to see.

"It's so calming up here." Joo-Hyun whispered. 

"It is." Y/N agreed. "Can I admit something to you?" Y/N frowned. Her sister looked at her, seeing how upset she was getting with just the thought in her mind. "I really hate competing against you every year." She frowned. 

"Music wise?" She asked. Y/N nodded. "Well... We are different groups.. Different agencies... It only makes sense they would want us to be the best we can be." Joo-Hyun sighed. "But no matter how many times either of us are in the same category, I do hope that you will win." She smiled. 

"But shouldn't you wish for your group to win?" Y/N frowned. 

"I do. At the same time I hope that one day it'll be a tie and we both win. But that'll never happen. But you're young... Your group is young... You'll need so many." She smiled. "You've already won so many too." She winked. "Your group really is special Y/N." 

"So is yours Baechu." Y/N smirked. Her sister rolled her eyes and pushed her playfully. "I mean it. Zimzalabim was a great song. And Peek-A-Boo... Equally terrifying." She laughed. Joo-Hyun smiled, a blush creeping on her cheeks. 

"You've never done anything like that yet. It's fun." She smiled. 

They stayed silent for a while, both of them enjoying each other's company as they stayed hidden on the roof. 

"Y/N... I want you to know... Even though you don't want to tell me about the person you're dating... When you feel comfortable, I would love to hear everything about them. I do want to protect you... I want you to trust me..." Joo-Hyun sighed. "I just... I don't like the idea of my baby sister dating someone I can't control." She chuckled. 

"Don't worry... They won't hurt me." Y/N smiled. 

"Can you give me vague details?" She asked. Y/N smiled and rested her head on her elder sister's shoulder. 

"Their eyes... It's like... All of their expressions are there. A smile could be on their face... But the eyes say something different. And their smile... When it's genuine... It's the most beautiful thing about them." Y/N smiled as she thought of Sana. Joo-Hyun smiled as her sister described her significant other to her. "They make me laugh... And make me feel safe." She whispered. 

"As long as they make you feel safe..." She started. "I can accept them." She smiled at her sister. 

A/N: Hey everyone!! I hope you are enjoying this book so far. I want you all to know I have another fic going on called 'Unexpected Secrets'! Please go give it a peek as I continue to work these two! Thank you for reading and I hope you all will love this book as well as my new one.