I Want You Back. (BEOMJUN/YEONGYU AU)

[00:07] In His Arms.

It was already midnight and Beomgyu was crying for almost half an hour now, his small body was shivering, his little sobs and chokes were painful.

With his frailed legs, he got off the bed and picked up his clothes.

"I look like a fucking mess.." he rasped, looking at the reflection of his body filled with scratches and marks, he looked like he was ravish.

He stood there for a minute, not moving, looking at his body with disgust.

He was tired.

If only he could dictate his heart not to love Yeonjun anymore, he will.

If only he could just make his love for him disappear.

If only.

He slowly put his clothes on and washed his face, he wouldn't dare to go out looking like a zombie, he was pale from crying too much, even now, his lips was still shaking.

It was hard for him to breath, he was trying to control his shaky hands, he was limping, his whole being was in pain.

"You should be used to this Beomgyu, he's been doing this since the beginning, why are you still a crying mess each time that he disappear.." he uttered, smiling bitterly as he pitied himself.

He checked his phone, hoping against hope that Yeonjun send him a message but of course, there was none.

Will it be weird that he only heard the older said 'I love you' to him twice?

The first time was when Yeonjun was too drunk and took his virginity away.

And the second time was when the older sleep talked while Beomgyu was beside him.

Now, to think of it, he wasn't sure if those 'I love yous' were for him.

Was he really that hard to love?

The lad bit his lower lip, his thoughts were killing him.

The place was suffocating, the longer he stay, the harder for him to breath.

Beomgyu rushed to the door, pushing it open.

And he saw him, standing in front, holding two convenience store bags.

"Hyung.."

"Hey, what's wrong?" Yeonjun asked.

Beomgyu was standing in front of him, he looked so lost and weak, his tiny hands were shaking and he looked like he would faint any minute from now.

The older quickly stepped inside and pulled Beomgyu.

"I just bought some foods, I thought you might be hungry once you wake up." Yeonjun quickly explained.

Beomgyu stood still, he couldn't speak, he was afraid he would breakdown in front of Yeonjun once again.

"H-hyung I--"

"I'm sorry." Yeonjun said, cutting Gyu's words.

"I didn't mean to scare you, damn that cashier was too slow, I was out longer than expected."

Yeonjun pulled Beomgyu into a hug, rubbing his back as he hummed softly, trying to calm the younger down.

For the past two years he managed to scar the younger's heart, it was evident to him that Beomgyu cried thinking that he was left all alone again.

He couldn't blame him, it was his fault, he did it everytime.

Now that he finally see what happened each time that he leave, guilt slowly crept in his system.

Beomgyu buried his face on Yeonjun's chest and after some seconds, the older heard muffled sobs, his shirt started to get wet.

He tightened his hug around him as he tried to hushed him down.

"I'm sorry Gyu, I won't do it again, I promise."
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Short update. Yes!

What do you think? Will Yeonjun really change for the better?

Do you think he will start to love Beomgyu now?

I actually don't know lol 😂