[DISCONTINUED] I'm Heere For You. (Michael Mellx Jeremy Heere)

Part 23: The Frist mouth

  (Unus Annus is life
TW: Metion of suicide, depression
   (Jeremy's POV)

    Michael was fine for the frist mouth. He didnt have any episodes. He was staying busy, and going to his therapy sessions.

    Michaels therapist was really understanding instead if telling us if Michael had PDD or an episode she was using the time to get to know Michael.

    One time I went in to cuss me and Michael how me and Michael are you cant talk to one of us without hearing about the other, so I was allowed in for the frist two.

    After that frist month though....

    Things got a little messy. Michael wouldn't tell me what happed and he didnt write about it in the log,

    (The log is the daily log, I did some research and it said its easier to prevent episodes if you know what's causing them, so that's what we go by)

    So I didn't know what happened to him but he got really sad out if nowhere, and he could barely muster a smile.

    Michael's had episodes before, like I've said, it's been going on since 4th.

    Theres a pattern that it goes by. (1) Frist he'll try and resist the episode, so he get tired (this goes on for about 5 days).

    (2) Then the episode will start and he'll start crying a lot. He puts off doing things but ends up getting him self to do them anyway (this will happen for 3-6 days).

    (3) After it will depend on how sever the episode is, if its modoret he'll have 1 or 2 days where he cant really do all the tasks but if its sever, He will be stuck in bed. He slips into this state of numbness.

   If its miled he will cry and if you presser him enough he will talk, but if its sever, he won't do anything. It's an argument to get him out of bed. He wont talk, he wont have a opinion on anything, and over all he just exists for a while.

    (It varies, but usually, Modoret will be around 5 days, mild will be 6-7 and sever is 8-10 the longest whole episode hes had is 2 months, back in 6th it was right before and after his first suicide attempt.)

    (4) After the numbness Michael will start talking more, crying more. He will get the intrest back into coding, He'll drop his guitar and after he'll use Music as an outlet.(This lasts for 1-2 days)

     (5) Michael will then come out of the episode, with a little sadness for a couple of days but he will do the things he needs to do, though he might cry some along way.

    I knew Michael was having an episode when he stopped sleeping (or over sleeping sometimes and eating. He always claims he "wasn't hungry" and will have bags under his eyes.

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     "Michael you need to eat." I demanded. Michael stared blankly.

    "I'm not hungry." He replied. I've been avoiding pressuring Michael about this because Kalya and Jason, but there at Jasons dorm tonight.(luckly; we can hear there moaning at night it's not  fun)

     "I don't care. Your have to eat something Michael!" I begged. Michael looked down. I put my pointer finger under his chin, my thumb on top. "Please, for me?" I begged once more. Michael sighed.

    "Fine." He mumbled. I smiled and giggled, pecking his lips. Getting up from the stool I was on and walking over to the fridge, I pulled out some brownies- there Michael's favorite- and walking back over to the couch.

    I gave Michael one, he took it and ate it slowly. I leaned on his shoulder.

    "You feeling ok?" I asked Michael.

    "I'm fine." Michael replied. Michael always says I'm fine. It's his favorite reply.

    A silence passed.

    "Ba!" I sand watching as michael smiled softly. "Babababababababa! HA BA BA BA BA BAAAAAAAAA!!" I exclaimed, getting louder as I went along. Michael laughed, something i hadn't heard in almost 3 weeks. I beamed, jumping on Michael in a hug.

    Michael kissed my nose, as we pulled away.

   "Episode over?" I asked. Usually Michael will have something that brings him out of it for the most part. He just needs something to pull him back. Michael just smiled at me in a reply.

Michael began kissing all over my face. I broke into a fit of giggles.

Michael grabbed me and pulled us both down onto the couch, nuzzling into my hair.

"Getting there." Michael replied. I smiled and nuzzled I to him.

I had a feeling that maybe just maybe, this year wouldn't be so bad after all.

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AN:I've been fucking dead I'm so sorry~ this is really short too, imma try and write more.

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