lost and found

2.

Like the Alpha senior said, i was tonight on a airplane to the silver moon pack. i borded the airplane with a dark clouds hanging over me, and away we go. I wasn't pleased with the journey, i just wanted to be in my bed, slowly dying day by day. Why did the Alpha think this is going to work. I lost my mate and mind at the same time. Christian was right about me. If my mate was able to hurt me, why would anyone give e the time of day. I was as ugly as he said. I was stupid to believe that i could be loved for the woman i am. My mind was still digging my grave, it's getting darker in my mind with every passing of time. My passion for my life is drowning in the pool of my tears. every half hour the stewardess passed my asking If i need anything, she's a wolf, and her sent placed her to a nieghbouring pack. My Alpha senior probably asked her to keep an eye on me, making sure i didn't do anything improperly, but here hovering makes me wanna crawl in the blanket and pretend to be a sleep.

It was past midday wen i arrived in the north of norway, and the sky was dark, just like my mind. I left the airplane and instantly there's a woman in front of me, i sniffed the air around and looked at the most beautiful woman i ever had seen. She's tall and has curves like a goddess, here light pink lips, and a porsaline complexion. Here eyes are ice bleu, and long golden hair witch a slite curl i it. She was divine, i blinkt a few times to impressed.
She gives me a soft smile " you must be Abigail, Nice to meet you, im Heidi the gamma's mate. And your healer for the duration of your stay." I shook her hand and followed her to the exit.  Were driving along dark wood roads, the dark sky's got darker. I begun to understand were the moon comes from in the silver moon pack, they where in darkness for the most of the year.

Heidi and i remind in silent for a couple kilometers, till she's had enough. " Abigail, you're going to live by or rules for the duration of your stay, you understand?" I nodded and a hesitated yes leaves my mouth. "You are going the work hard, train hard, and life a lot." I looked shock tewards her, " training?" I asked. " Yes training, i heard from youre alpha senior that you haven't had any training yet. You need to able to defend for your self." The rest of the way she let me think.

We arrived at the Pack house of the silver moon pack, Alpha Lars and Luna Katrina meted me in front of it. I was also introduced to Heidi's mate Larkin, Beta sanna and her mate Bjorn. They ware al so gentile with me, giving me a welcomed feeling. I wasn't able to bring a smile to my lips, Heidi noticed it and showed my room in the large pack house. "You'll stay on the 6th Floor in the private spare room of or Alpha and Luna." She informed me. " No, no, no i can't do that i'm only a omega, my place is with the rest of the omega's" i say. I'm not good enough, not importend enough, to be at such level in the pack house of an other pack. So i stopt on the first floor, but Heidi kept climbing up the stairs. All i could do is following her.
She showed me a room thats bigger than the 3 rooms that where at my parents house. The room was painted in pastel green en icy white. A kingsized white bed and white nightstands, the bed was covered witch was light green with pink little flowers blankets . I turned around in the lush grey long haired carpet, and saw two double doors. One of them opened up a large walk-in closet. My mouth widened, how is it possible to fill this, it would take me a life time to do that. i opened the other double white doors, to be mesmerized by the bathroom in front me, the large Windows next to the bath gave me a sight. A serene lake was in front of me the full moon shining on the water surface.  There's also a large walk in shower with a rain nuzzle to relive the stress. A big mirror and two sinks in natural stone. And the softest towels i ever touched.
I walk out of the bathroom in a super soft towel, to be surprised by a young girl. " o sorry miss, i didn't intend on scaring you. My name is Disa, i'm here to help you with everything" My heart race is slowly coming down. " Can i help," i asked with a little voice. " Miss i was send by my Luna to invite you to dinner. And to ask If you needed anything else." I shook my head no, so Disa disappeared as fast as she came in.

Dinner past as normal as possible, i listen to The Alpha and Luna about the working of there pack. And the thing i would do here. I'm supposed to be training in the early morning with the rest of the pack. Than i had my lessons with Heidi and in the afternoon, i would be studying to get my law degree by the end of the academic year. I would be attending every meal, and every special night that comes along.
I would be here for a year, with no excuses to not to attend. it's going to be a long year, the only thing i want is be left alone, to reach my end. I was mad at myself, why didn't my suicide attempt work. I even sucked in that, it shall work the next time i said to myself. My wolf Stella is being torn between wanting her mate and leaving this world for good. What was one year, i would do it, and than be free. It is my ultimate wish. There's Notting left in my world that i would fight for. My life became meaningless the moment Christian left me on the side walk. Just thinking of him, made my brain go insane. As i entered my room for the next year, the pain thickens, it physical hurting as psychologically. I crash onto the bed. Heavy crying clouding my senses. And a deep sleep takes me to dream state.