lost and found

10.

Abigails POV

Since Stella Came out a few days ago, by running from her Alpha. She's being frantic in my head. So i decided to go for a run in Wolf form. She had a strong wil for a free run. Coming at the tree line i shifted, Stella's silvery fur danced in the wind will she speeded trough the forrest. Ending at the Meadow we now so well because of Heidi. Stella went to the middle with her body glittered in the rays of sun. The warmth spreading trough her muscles en bones, warming her from the outside in. She laid herself down in the middle of a bunch of wild daisy's. Inhaling there smell en relaxing to the core. I looked from the back of my mind, at how Stella saw the world. She hadn't had the fear i hade and have, she hadn't had the abundance of darkness covering her every thought. Yes she didn't let her seen for a long time, but al she did was lick her wounds and pride. And came back the moment she felt a danger for my live. She is de strongest of us two, i break down and cry. The realization of my weakness hits my like a brick, i'm the weakest link in the chain. How could i think in my mind that Stella was the one feeding my the dark thoughts. I't was all me, i Abigail wasn't worth it to be Stella's other half. My interpretation of who to blame for what was been don to me. I was the powerless one. Stella ignored my ranting thoughts, she let me panic al by meself. and layed her head between here front paws. Snoozing with the soft breeze touching the leaves on top of the trees.

Resting in the sunlight Stella just let everything pass her, birds in the trees singing there loves songs, a dear grazing on tasty gras at the furthest side of the meadow. Suddenly Stella pickt up a noise, a twig snap, without lifting her head she turned her ears to the sound. It wasn't a heavy animal sound, but something small like a rabbit or a mole of some kind. Stella moves up, in the mood to go play with smal beast instead of eating it. She softly came to her feet and went with little steps closer. crawling the last meters, sneaking up to the animal that was a squirrel. The squirrel was running around like a headless chicken. Stella and i looked fascinating at the cute creature, it was a squirrel with an ADHD problem. Man the little guy was running up and down of a tree. his cheeks filled with food. digging holes arond the tree, spitting the nuts in the shallow grave at the roots of the big tree. Stella snickers in wolf form, while we watched squirrel. It looked like the squirrel had an inner monolog with him self. The squirrel marched or way, stopping in front of Stella's massif head, he puts his hands in his sides. Thas a strange move for a squirrel i tought, Stella slightly tilled her head to the side, looking curios to the little beast. The squirrel kept on trowing his hands in the air, making grand gestures, and making a squeaky sound. That made Stella laughing so hard she rolled over the ground. Giggling till she could no more. That seemt to bothering the squirrel even more. He took a step back and transformed it self to guinea pig. Shocked by its transformation, Stella tried to keep a straight face , not scarred by something thats not bigger than her paw. It was like the guinea pig was frustrated by it self, and Stella couldn't hold on anymore. I saw the shifter try to shift in all different kind of small animal, getting flustered by every try. Till the moment a big brown bear appeared. Stella was fast on her feet, backing away, keeping an eye on the bear. The bear growled, and Stella with her tall between her legs, made sure she was at the other far side of the meadow.

Looking to the post she just left, she saw the bear transforming to a man. He had to be welcomed by the pack, otherwise he wouldn't be here i stated to Stella, i she her nodding trough the mind link and with caution she went to him. First sniffing the air, Testing how close she could come, not wanting to put us in any danger.

" Hi, i'm Alex!" He screamed from a distance, i confirmed that i heard him. But i hadn't any reserve clothes with me, so i couldn't make a appropriated acquientness. The Alex guy got my drift, and suggested to go back to pack housing grounds. Stella walked behind him, seeing the unique way of walking by this man. He had a spring in his step, it was almost to hard not to follow his lead in walking. He had a walk where you could think he hadn't a care in the world. But i knew shape shifters like him didn't have a homy home. Most packs would trow them out, cursed to life amongst them selfs. You didn't hear much about shape shifters, the where mostly cast out of the werewolf packs. Many people think the are shifty, unpredictable when it came to shift. they said that shifters didn't have a second half like our wolfs. I one the other hand think the are misunderstood. And i know that feeling all to good.

At my cabin, i walked in in wolf form, i had to be carefully, my wolf body was so much bigger than my human form. That i felt like an elephant in a porcelain shop. Watching carefully not to drop anything to the floor. In the bedroom i was glad i didn't shut the door of my walk in closet, have you ever seen a wolf opening doors? Walked straight in, back in my human body i dressed my self in a jeans and t-shirt and went to the front porch, Where the Alex dude waithed till i came back out side. " So Alex, who are you, and what are you doing here?" i asked right to the chase. Not wanting to spill my time. I had learned the last couple of weeks, that if you wanted something done, you take the bull by the horns. " you're a straight forwards shooter" he says. " Thats not answering my questions."i trowed back. " A friend !" he grinned, looking with narrow eyes at him i was getting bord with his childish behavior, i turned my back to him, and started to head to my cabin door. I had work to do, and how much stella wanted to play a game, I had contracts to adjust, people to call. " Okay,i'm sorry" he tries to convince me to stay, so i turned back, and looked at him with a look of, go on i'm waiting.
He contineus the moment he sees me turning. " I"m Alex, friend of Aiden." He puts his thump to the side and showed me the main guesthouse trough the trees. I pulled my eyebrows higher, and made a sign to continue, getting tiered of his mischief. " He fond me in Canada, and we've been traveling together for over four years." Getting more inpatient by the minute. " Get to the point." i said tiredly. " Aiden asked me to keep an eye one you, while he and Alpha Lars getting an the handle on things like the witch you've seen." a blush appeared on his face. What he said, did hurt me inside. They al thought that I needed protection. On that moment i decided to not be the victim anymore. I had training with Heidi, the best warrior/ healer i ever knew. She was even better than Aidens Sister, and she was the best warrior of my home pack. Without a word i walked back in the cabin to my office. I heard Alex shouting and laughing that he would stay put like a dog. When i looked outside the window down the porch, i had to laugh at the small Yorkshire terrier that laid down on the welcome carpet. Actually i liked Alex in a way. It seems he is a comedian, with a strange taste in jokes. But non the less a good guy to have along. Al do i couldn't relay on Aidens choise of friends, because Christian was Aidens best friend growing up. The two of them where inseparably while growing up. I't was strange that Aiden didn't come to me to ask what happened, he had to know that Cristian isn't a pack member anymore. He had to feel like the rest of our pack, the lose of a member, when they where exilde or go'ing roughed, doesn't it hurt him? Or did Alpha Senior gave him the basics, and Aiden didn't wanted to know, how a omega like me could get the Beta expelled from the pack. Thousand of thoughts passed my mind, not able to concentrated on documents in front of me. Fear gaining control, feeling my body tense, having difficulty breathing, spots appeared in my sightline. Where is the paper bag, i searched the office, and about to get more panicked. The door of my office flew open with a hard bang against the wall, And Aiden stood in the opening. Still hyperventilating,i panicking searching for the papaer bag, wanting to normalize my intake of breath, not wanting to pass out. Aiden noticed my state, he entered the office icy calm, walked over to the desk, and picked the bagg up from the ground, holding it for me, coaching me to slow down, and to relax. I was drained, every bit of energy left my body, i wanted to lay my head down, and let sleep catch up with me. The last thing i remember are electro shocks runing over my skin in to the core of my heart, giving me the permission to assent in to the world of sleep.