lost and found

5.

Days past, weeks past, almost at the and of may, days became longer, not long from now the daylight would last  a hole day. They called it the midnight sun. I've been for the most time stable, it's not getting darker in my mind, and now and then a ray of sunlight enters trough a peek, lighting up my self-esteem a bit. I passed my study's, and I was proud of myself. Luna Katrina, Heidi and Disa took me out to town, we went celebrating. First a lovely dinner, followed up by dancing in the nearby bar. We had a blast. For a few hours i enjoyed myself, i laughed and i joked, more than i ever did in my life. feeling liberated out my own prison. Like everything good, it comes a point that it has to end. When we left the bar, i had a gut feeling that bad things where bound to be happening. A Feeling of chillers running up and down my spine. The hair standing at the base of my neck. Having the obsession of looking over my shoulder. Being paranoid, it subsided a bit the moment i crossed pack lines. A safe sense covered me like a blanket.

Today i had a meeting with Alpha Lars, With my degree in hand, i would like to give a contribution to the pack law, helping his and my pack in the difficult territory of pack law and council law. if i wanted to do that i needed a bit of more space than the Lush room that i had now. So i wanted to ask the Alpha if i may life in the nearby cabin. it had internet, telefoon, a big office where i could put all the boock i needed. A little bedroom and bathroom. and the necessary privacy. I Knocked on his office door.

"Come in" Alpha Lars his powerful deep voice resonated trough the thick brown oak door. I Entered his office, standing with respect in-front of his desk waiting for him to look at me. "Sit Abby, what can i do for you?" while he said that, he looks at me as if i was his little sister in law, he shows my kindness and respect in his eyes.  I explained to him what happened and how i was feeling about willing to help in my field of degree. an i asked him for the cabin.  Alpha lars was sitting in his chair, his right index finger resting on his lip holding his chin. He has a pensive look, and lets me sit there in silence for 7 minutes, chowing on my inner cheek.

" Humm" he begins, pulling to the edge of my seat. " What about training and meditation how do you see that?" he asked me. What the heck i thought to myself, i hoped to be finished whit the meditation. i wasn't still able to put my brain on mute, when Heidi and i where supposed on doing that. My voice sounded small when i answered with a question " I will continue those?" I looked up and a grin was painted on Alpha Lars his face. Damn't i walked right in that, i had to be smarter than that, this was the second time they let me walked right in to there plans. " okay" he said, i smile spread on to my face " however" he continued. Hope was sinking straight to the tips of my toes. " You will attend al training and meditation, you will eat at the pack house and you will go shopping." My eyebrows raised to the sky. Did i hear him right, mandatory shopping? What did i do to  deserve that kind of torture. I was conferable in my jeans and hoody's. The alpha looks at my face that turned to horror, he try's to look at me with a straight face " Miss Abby, if you talk and walk the part of our lawyers, you have to look the part as well." my chin dropped to the ground at his announcement. Suddenly a laughter fils the rooom. The Alpha almost fel from his chair laughing his ass of. chocking between his laughter and his words, i felt like he was pulling my leg. Thats before the doors burst open, and i'm greeted by two faces and big smiles.

They really kidnapped me, those 3 woman's just grabbed me, pulled me in a car and kidnapped me to go shopping. Before all the shit happened with Christian, i was a typical girl that like to go shopping, not only for clothes, i liked wearing new clothes tailored to my body, but i loved people watching just as much. But from that faithfully day, the last thing i though about was my appearance, i still didn't now, however i understood the importance of first impression. And would endure the experience. During the day there where highlights, we had fun, everyone of us had put something on that was so out our comfort zone. Somethings where so wrong that it became right again. Disa had put on an entire 80' outfit with neon al over the place, it was bright but she brought it so cute. The Luna had dressed here self in traditional norway clothing. What do i envy here, she looks incredibly in everything. Heidi dressed here self in a girly girly outfit, with her combats to make the look. my cheeks and stomach muscles hurt from laughing so much. when we went back to the car. Each carrying hands full  of bags and arms full of shoe boxes. I never spend so much in my entire shopping career as i did today. I felt shame drowning me, they had done so much for an un worthless omega, i could never repay them for what they done to enrich my life. I had my own space to life in, a new career in my future, and stil there where days that call of darkness was intense. But they where more manageable then weeks ago.

In the parkinglot, when we where filling trunk, the sickening feeling of horror washed over me, franticly  looking around me. Not being on ease, not able to pin point the way from where the dangerous premonition is coming from. Heidi picked on, and as warrior of here pack she ushered her Luna in to the car. Demanding Disa to get in, coming next to me, looking with me to see the trait. She slightly pusched me to the car, intending with her body langue to step in and get the hell out of her. I followed here instructions, and when i was in, she got behind the wheel and speeded out of town. To the pack lines to get us safe and away from danger.