lost and found

8.

Abigails POV

My head was hurting, i've been sitting behind my computer for the last four hours. Drafting new member contracts, took the entire day. I needed a run, clear my thoughts before the gala this evening. I wonder if i can send my cat if i would own one. I don't think Luna Katrina and Alpha Lars wouldn't be content with me if i did that. i wasn't looking forwards to see my Alpha, i was almost sixteen when he left, and the only thing i remember of him is the gossip going around the pack. I never saw him leave, and now i wasn't in the mood to welcome here. What if he demands of me to come home, do i want that? Do i want to go back? I'm i ready to go back? What a waits me back home? Will i fit in or will i for ever dream of coming back here? Finally i was seeing light in myself, everyday a little more. The dark reduced to the shade of the corners of my mind. I was getting stronger, more independent, the fear under strict control. Was my Alpha here to kill my peace of mind. Enough i reprimanded myself. shaking my body loose , i headed my run towards the woods . I enjoyd the birds songs, while passing them on a good speed. I was glad i trained with Heidi, she's one mean woman if it comes to condition of your body during a run. She always pushed me that bit more. Since i came here i had changed, not only my inner self but also my body. My long white blond hair, has been cut to a bob that rest on my shoulders. My complexion is light pink and bright. My thin body has gained muscles on al the right places it was toned by the intense workouts of Heidi. My body looked good,and nobody will ever put me down again. it felt possible for the future that i could get a new lease on life.

I walked out of the woods and see Disa standing on the porch of the cabin. The moment i come in here view see waves me, if she go's any faster than she is going, she wil pop out here arm. I chuckle at her joy, its rubbing off on me. " Hey Disa, whats with the suitcase? or you moving in?" i joked. A wondering look shoots out her eyes. till she remembers she sitting on top of it. " No silly, i came to be you're fairy godmother, to make or lonely cinderella in the most beautiful princess of the ball." There go's my good temper, just filed it up with a run, and it vanished as snow from the sun . Disa didn't let me stew on it for long, she pulled at me and pushed me the bathroom in. Hot water streams down my back, relaxing every thens muscle. I showered myself, put camille shampoo on my hair after rinsing, i put a camille hair mask on, and took my time to massage my scull. Taking my sweet time i scrub myself with my favorite lush red cherry soap. I walked out of the shower and saw some black stockings with red lace. and a satin blush pink dressing gown. "DISA!!" i screamed, and she put her head around the corner of the door. She lookes at me with one eyebrow lifted. "Yes? Do you have to shout, i'm only in the next room!" I felt ashamed for being so loud at her so i apologized. " where is the bra and panties i'm supposed to be wearing?" "New game plan, i brought a new dress with me, Heidi saw it last shopping trip, and she bought it for you, in case of,..." Disa continued here story, i didn't listen very well after Heidi her name was dropped. What was that lovely vixen thinking i wondered. Following Disa in to the bedroom buried in my toughtes. Suddenly i look up and see the most stunning burgundy red satin dress hanging on the door of the walk-in closet. Disa pushed me in the seat in front of the mirror, starting to blow dry my hair straight down. My make up was amazing, she made my dark blue eyes seem as deep bleu as the caribian sea. It wasn't much on the eyes and overal a neutral kind of look, except for my lips, they had the same red as my dress, sparkling in the lights. I looked stunned at myself. For the first time i felt like a real woman, not the child i was when i came here. When did that happened, when did i become the woman that looks back at me in the mirror. Disa held the dress for me to put it on. The satin dress had a low back, the shoulders where kept together with a necklace of Swarovski crystals that go down to the low back in the middle of my spine. it hugged my hips and had a sexy spilt on the right side. Disa handed me the matching black t strip stilettos with red soles. seeing me from top to buttom made me proud of myself, i was hot, sexy and all woman. I felt in powered by the way ik look, Heidi has great taste, i reminded myself to thank her later at the gala.

Disa and i walked to the pack house fashionable late, talking and holding each other, trying not to fall face down in the grass. We stepped inside, passing the living room, to the back ballroom. The large dark brown oak doors where closed, i tried to swallow my nerves. I was edgy, just a panic attack away. Where was the power i felt when i left my cabin? I had to get over it? together Disa and i pulled at the doors, giving us a clear and total view of the ballroom. Mesmerized by the bigg Chrystal chandeliers, the dark stained floors and golden decoration. It was grand, it looked like a dinning room in the castle of Princess Sissi of Austria.
Lost in the sight i didn't notice a change in the air. the moment my brains catching up, a loud growl erupted from someones deep chest. And a figure of a man walks straight at me. My body reacts before i think of it, backing away, turning and running as fast as i learned out of the pack house. keeping my panic at bay, i stopt to a halt, in the meadow where i train. Standing my ground, hearing the treat coming closer, bracing myself for the fight i expected to come.

Out of the tree line steps a black wolf, curiosities covered his face. The wolf put his noise into the air, sniffing me out. I see him trying to mind link me, getting frustrated by it not working. I did the same sniffing till his sent of dark chocolate and red Berry's, and familiarity hits me. Damn i just disrespected my Alpha, al because of my fear of men. i'm going to pay the price if gossip is right. i lowered my head, keeping my eyes pined to the ground, showing a faint of submissiveness. Something is holding me back to be surrendering me to my Alpha. Maybe because he was gone before i got to meet Stella. The black wolf made its way for Aiden his full glory of nakedness. I made the mistake to look up, a blush made its way to my cheeks. Aiden tries to get closer to me, but with every forwards step he takes, i take one back.

Meanwhile the Alpha, Luna, Larkin and Heidi had catch up with us. Alpha Lars handed a short to Aiden and said something to him, if Stella was here, i could here what they where saying. Still standing in the middle of the meadow stepping back if anyone of them tried to come closer, frozen in my panic state off mind. Even Heidi came with her hands up in surrender, i still backed up. they where talking. Getting a plan to capture me Stella says in my head. I was panicking and my wolf was crazy enough to do something stupid.Stella Kept on pushing me to the back of my head, trying to gain control over us. I was fighting her with everything i got left in me, not wanting here to break free. Because she gave me the feeling she's about to kill someone. That would be bad, i didn't know i would be able to stop her damagingly rampage. During my internal dialog is see out of the corner of my eye Alpha Aiden approaching me as if i was his pray for his next dinner. I one swift nanosecond Stella took over and transformed in her silvery wolf form, growling, showing teeth, snapping to Alpha Aidens Human form. Stella was wild and feral, trying to gain control, pushing on Stella to back down. not able to talk to her. Alpha Aiden demanded Stella to submit to him, i felt the weight of the demand going trough me, Stella refused, and the last thing i remeber is Stella taking of into the woods; i fought my wolf and lost, disrespected my Alpha and Alpha Lars. I was afraid i lost my self in the proses as well. This was bad, so bad, i don't know how to make this right. Not long after i passed out, weariness had drowned me empty.