lost and found

14.

Abigails POV

I felt the mattress budge underneath me. Slowly i awake from my sleep. Looking around me, i see nobody with me in the room. I had a strange feeling of loneliness, for the first time i came to the Siver Moon Pack, i felt alone. My soul and body craved for the closeness of Aiden. I was compelled to go and search for the reason, the reason my soul, heart and body inflamed with fire that only could be conquered and tamed by the touch of Aiden. I had a new sense of belonging, of being complete. The shadows of my doubt where stil lingering in the back of my mind. Looking for a weak spot in my defense, wishing there was an opening to come back with a vengeance. But in this moment of time, i had other things to capture. I had to figure out what the heck happened to me at the lake. One moment i was talking and laughing with Disa, Feeling like the weight of the world just lifted from my shoulders, to an immense pressure of control. I had seen the reactions of my friends and i panicked. Leaving me with an emptiness inside that took al the wind out of my sails.

I quit thinking and looked at the window noticing it was a beautiful summer day. The warmth of the sun left an pleasant temperature in the bedroom. Inserting me with a new found joy. i walked in my closeth. Picked a flowery pink bra and matching panties, and a new baby pink blush dress, it was straight at the shoulders with extra fabric so it gave a flowing look, the body was tailored to my waist, and the skirt was a lose A line with multiple layers. I look around my mountain of shoe's, zooming in on some hot pink sandals with white pearls on top of them to make the look complete. I couldn't remember if i ever walked in my closet with the intend of being drop death gorgeous for a guy. It got my all giddy inside. after my indulgent shower i dried my white blond hair and put a french braid in it that hanging on the side. ready to win the world of the man that gave me the sensation of life back.

Walking out of the bedroom, in to the little kithen i noticed a note on the fridge. COME EAT BREAKFAST WITH ME AT THE MEADOW. A. even in his notes you could sense his Alpha power, always so demanding i thought to myself. curious at what Aiden had up his sleeve, i started my walk towards the meadow. I took my sweet time, i strolled in the wood, looking at it with a new found of insight. The colors reached my eyes with more intensity, the green looked so much brighter, the flowers had more shades in them than i originally saw. The birds song came in surround sound. i could hear every detail of the woods, where a rabbit was eating roots, where the birds jumped from branch to branch. My senses overloaded, and i enjoyed every single moment of it. Hoping this would last at least long enough for me to vanquish the dark out of my being. I stopt just before the meadow, the clearing just infront of me, showing Aiden walk up and down his own made path. I smilled at the thought that he was as nerves as i am. Standing in my secluded place for a moment longer i drank it al in. Not wanting to miss anything. I had to go closer, putting Aiden out of his missserie. I came in to the open site, and as soon as i stept on it, Aidens eyes where fixated on me, dropping his mouth, but correcting it as soon as the action took place. I loved the way he could make me feel, i went from ordinary to stunning just by the look in Aidens eyes.

Aiden had brought all my favoriet breakfast items, hard boiled eggs, salty bacon, smocked Salmon, fresh orange juice, croissants, chocolate bread. fresh strawberry's, cherry's and black berries. and so much more of good stuff. By the time we eated it all, it was somewhere in the early afternoon. Whe spent or time, eating, drinking, talking about everthing and anything, just enjoying our time spent together. We learned so much about each other, i was so struck by Aiden, every minute i spend time with him, it was like an invisible wire was pulling us closer. Wanting us to get dense with one another.

Time past to fast, and before i knew it was time to go back to the pack, Aiden had to deal with some important work, and i had contracts to send. but before i could spent my time behind my desk, i had to see Heidi. If someone had the answers to the affairs that where happening it was her. I went one a quest to find the woman that had been steering me on the path of inner peace. Finding her in her office in the pack house, after knocking on her door, she let me enter and sit in the chair in front of her. Signing me to hold on a minute, i sat there looking at the bookcase. It was filled to the top with books of healing and history, some of them had titles that i couldn't pronounce if my life depended on it.

Heidi looked up and saw the wrinkles on my face as i tried to read her bookcase. she looked over her shoulders, looking the same direction of me. She stood up, and took the book i tried to read the title of. Keeping my eyes on her, i was confused. " I need some advice." i told Heidi, but she sat back down without letting a word out. she continued keeping quiet, letting me sink in my own thoughts. Heidi sat with the book in front her, reading it, when she finaly lifted her head and saw me. she had flipped thought her book for more than the half trough. " Abigail, do you know who you really are?" I gave her a confused look. " I'm Abigail, daughter of Marc and Kristy Rivers, sister of Michael, omega of the Silver moon pack. Thats me in a nutshell." i said Heidi with a small timid smile. I got for the first time in my life intimidated by my rank in my pack. how could i, an omega, be the mate of an Alpha? How could i ever be good enough to stand next to him. Liable for an pack? I wasn't even in a condition to take care of myself, let alone to be responsible for over the thousand people living on pack domaine . I was making myself sick with al the thoughts where i have no influence on. Heidi had an eye on me, " Do you know which kind of book you looked at?" i have a surprised look at the book on the table. " You know knowing means power, i'm asking you now, are you up to that power?" Not sure i wanted to know, i put my shoulders up. " Not knowing could be bliss with people who are not as a nerd like me." Heidi nodded at that stand. " You're right, but i wonder if this would be the best time to tell you." I was getting more puzzled by this conversation with time passing. shaking the fluff that ws left in my mind, i asked Heidi what i wanted to ask in the first place. " Heidi, can you make me better? Train me stronger, train me to my limit. I need to be staddy, i need to make sure i'm the best i can be." the pure need was laced in my voice. Heidi gave a face filled with pride " i thought you never ask." We started to talk about the things i needed to do, what my strengths where and my weak spots. No wonder that my biggest weakness was de inability to relax. But i was determinate to succeed in my intensions. This would be the firts day of my new beginning, and nobody would stand in my way. I wouldn't let them, i will walk over everyone that think they have the right to interfere with me.